A Second Chance: Help Chanel Rebuild Her Life

Hello — my name is Chanel (fka Stephen) Jameson.

First, I want to say I am truly sorry. I am deeply sorry to the people I have hurt, disappointed, and drifted away from. I am sorry for my silence, for the missed calls and neglected messages, and for not showing up when you needed me. That regret lives with me every day. There is not anything that I wish I could change more Than my list of connection and disappointment I have caused between the best people in my life.

There was a time when I brimmed with ambition and bright energy — I loved making people laugh, lifting others up, and chasing goals with fierce focus. For years I worked toward a Bachelor of Science in Nursing (BSN) and poured my heart into that path. But a single off-campus incident during a traffic stop led to my suspension from the University of Rhode Island and dismissal from the College of Nursing. That moment was the beginning of a very dark period in my life.

After that suspension, I began to unravel. I made choices that led me down the road of addiction. For a long time I felt lost, ashamed, and isolated. I used the time to explore myself and my expression, and I am grateful I learned things about who I am. But addiction taught me a painful lesson: this lifestyle is not who I want to be, and it is not who I am meant to be.

My skills, my talents, and the education I once fought so hard for were not nurtured in the spaces I was surrounding myself with. I watched my reputation and my relationships fracture. I know my history and the company I kept have harmed how some see me from the outside. That reality has been humbling and devastating. It has created insecurity and shame that nearly stole my ability to engage with the world.

But this is not the end of my story. I have reached a place of clarity and surrender. I am finally ready to admit defeat to the addiction that has controlled my life, and to ask for help. I want to rebuild — not as a quick fix, but with quiet, consistent steps toward stability, sobriety, and meaningful purpose.

I am planning a move to a new place — far enough away from familiar faces and places that might tempt me to fall back into old patterns — so I can grow, heal, and rebuild my life in a healthy environment. This move represents more than an address; it is a fresh start, a chance to prove to myself and to others that I can be who I used to be: kind, driven, and full of positive energy.

How your gift will be used

If you can help, your donation will go directly toward:

• First month’s rent and security deposit for a modest apartment

• Basic household essentials (bed, linens, cookware, toiletries) to make a stable, safe home

• Transportation and moving costs to get me to a fresh environment

• Immediate essentials to support early recovery steps (phone access for support networks, initial appointments, basic living needs)

I promise to be transparent about how funds are used and to honor every contribution by using it for the purpose I’ve described.

If you can’t donate

I understand. Please consider sharing this campaign — the reach of your share could change everything for me. Even a kind message or a prayer means the world.

I know I have asked a lot. I know I have failed before. But I am asking now from a place of humility and real readiness. I am ready to surrender, to learn, and to rebuild. I hope you will believe in my desire to change and give me the chance I’m asking for.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you for reading, for your compassion, and for any support you can offer. Your kindness will not be wasted — it will be the foundation I stand on to become the person I always wanted to be again.

With gratitude,

Chanel (fka Stephen) Jameson