Where to start…‍

My name is Sierra, I am 41 yrs old and recently got the courage to leave a 6 yr relationship.

for the past 5 yrs of this relationship, I was ignored, yelled at, told “maybe if you loose weight, you’d get affection” and mentally abused.

just over a year ago I found out that my (now) ex fiancé was having an online affair. He was hiding it from me, saving the nude pictures he was getting and putting them into a special file on his phone. When I finally found them, he denied it. Then, he said it “wasn’t cheating”. After arguing, I finally told him that we need therapy in order to make this work. However during therapy, there was zero ambition from his side to participate in it. Recently, I’ve discovered, he’s been cheating again and i mentally cannot handle it anymore.

myself esteem from no affection or other intimate things in our relationship is extremely low and to top it off, I am suffering from a herniated disc and bulging disc in my neck. Making it hard to do daily routines.

I am making a gofundme in order to help financially to buy a trailer so i can leave with my 2 dogs. I am so heartbroken and overwhelmed with all of this. I really prayed that we could get past this, however his actions show me that he can’t.

I pray every night for strength and guidance. I’ve never been into drugs or alcohol. I just need some help financially to buy a trailer (nothing fancy) so I can leave this toxic relationship.❤️ please help if you can❤️