A new engine and medical leave

I’m in desperate need of help. I’m sorry to do this and hate to ask for help but I can’t keep going and act like all is ok and I’m ok.

Many know last year I had open heart surgery for the 2nd time, after that I have had one battle after another with medical issues. I worked about 5 months before I was taken out again in July of this year to have an emergency surgery (non heart related) and have been out of work since then. I have had complication after complication, I had another surgery just last month and this week, they are planning to talk about yet another surgery to possibly take out my uterus bc I haven’t stopped bleeding since my last surgery over a month ago. Every month, I’m barely making it, barely paying bills by the due date. It’s been beyond tough. I recently shared my car trouble with everyone, I had no car at all since it broke down serving at “I love my city” in March. Since then I’ve had so much medically, being out of work, my savings has been drained since last year and I can’t seem to get it up. My car miraculously began working just before Blink and it allowed Isaiah and I to serve faithfully at church without missing one night. Today, my car has completely croaked and left us on the side of a busy road on the way to Isaiah’s game, we prayed our way there and got there, then it seemed ok and it didn’t get us home, it completely broke down. Thankfully, I have roadside assistance with my insurance and they are towing my car. However, I felt on my heart to humble myself and put it out there. I am desperate for help. I need my car working for appointments, for working Instacart on the side, for CHURCH, for taking Isaiah to basketball. I feel like I truly can’t get my head above water and I don’t know what to do anymore. Every week just seems like more bad news. I try so hard to keep going, stay positive and know God will see us through but I’m not going to lie, it’s getting really hard to see the glass half full these days. I’m asking for help for a new engine and bills that are just piling up, I need to get better health wise and I feel like I can’t even heal bc I’m constantly stressed inside, not knowing what’s to come. I’m frustrated, I’m sad, I’m desperate, and to be honest, I’m at the point of really not understanding why I’m facing SO many trials but I’ll continue to trust God, actually ASK for help by doing this and know some how, some way, He will make a way and use this story for His glory. To be honest, I have no idea of the exact amount needed, I’ve been given very high quotes for this, so I’m setting the amount for what I feel led and just trusting.

I am in tears as I type this and just want to thank you in advance for any amount given and also all the prayers. Please just pray for us. It’s getting to a point where our struggles are truly affecting Isaiah and it breaks my heart. Again, thank you a million times and I’m honestly even sorry I’ve had to ask for help. I can’t wait for the day where I’m helping others again. Love and appreciate you all.