Broke but not Broken

I never thought I would ever reach out to strangers for help, I'm usually the one who helps even when I have little to give. But today I'm at wits-end. Over the past few years it's been the hardest I've ever dealt with, I can tell you some stories (which I will be documenting on my TikTok) and can also load here for anyone who would like details.

Things started to get heavy in March of 2023, with the death of godson, I was on the way for the funeral, decided to drive instead of fly and ended in the hospital that night and into the next day causing me to miss most of the funeral. I had swollen up and couldn't breathe due to the change in altitude (flat FL to higher NC) diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. Ok cool, I can handle it.

May 2023 I move into a new apartment(worse move-in day ever) now I should've broken the lease that day but people make mistakes and cool, I can handle it.

By August I'm having crazy cramps and stomach pains and have a hysterectomy by Sept. They had to take my ovaries so now instant menopause but ok cool, I can handle it.

I'm out of work, get back to work in Nov 2023

Jan 2024 my grandmother passes, I drive to NJ and back, never getting my own chance to grieve, I honestly don't think I've ever grieved anything I've been through, but anyway, ok cool I can handle this too and support others.

February 2024, one month later I have my first emergency CFS Leak, Cerebral Spinal Fluid Leak. I get the surgery spend about 10 days in ICU and told most people are fine after 12 weeks of recovery and go back to every day life. Okay cool, I can handle it.

Yeah you guessed it, 12 weeks later I'm at physical therapy, going back to work on Monday, and I have a new leak from the opposite side May 2024, I'm not cool but can't scare my kids. I get a 2nd surgery to close the entire front of my head. The day they were going to release me My spine will not stop leaking because yeah I'm an over achiever apparently and I get scheduled for a VP Shunt in my Brain.

June 2024 surgery #3 for this issue but actually #4 in less than a year. Same day might I add so no time to process how this is going to drastically change my life, my health, physically and mentally. There are no words for what my body goes through 24 hours a day. I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone.

I've fought for assistance, constantly get denied for things, then approved for things and never get the pay, applied for Medicaid that the government really don't want me to have and all they gave me.... if you read above this is just hilarious, anyway they will only give me "FAMILY PLANNING" and because I'm only 47 I can't get Disability Medicare until next year.

So high hospital, ambulance, prescriptions are ridiculous one Farxiga(heart congestion 90 day supply is over 16-1800.00 and I have 10 others as of today.

Then August 2025 my apartment made me sick, airborne fungus sinusitis, more meds more bill, more pain and I need to get out of here, I'm not cool and I can't handle it anymore.

I'm very skilled, very intelligent but now disabled, I laugh my way through the days. I know if I don't swallow my pride and ask for help I'm not gonna make it. So here it is, my life, my day to story in hopes that someone can help even with being in a position to get me INTO a program or just sharing my post with someone who can.

I'm an open book, if you see a post and have a question, say hello but please be kind. I have no space for negativity.

Funds will be used for medications, home utilities and necessities.

Update: please message me with any questions