Hi, my name is Jeana for the last three years I have been fighting a battle that I can’t win. At first I was married to a man that was an alcoholic for eight years.. I loved him so much and I was afraid he was gonna die so I sent him to Rehab my daughter, which is the one you see in the picture that you know is not alive and the little girl standing beside her in the picture that is her daughter. she’s never knew her mom. She can’t remember her and I can remember her every detail and the pain doesn’t get easier and I know that we’re just supposed to shut it down and go on with our life, but it’s not shoving down and the place where I worked has changed from a assisted living to a nursing home and I don’t have the qualifications that I need The classes I need are $2500 but I’m at the end of my rope I’ve been out of work for three weeks. I have $36.17 to my name. Luckily I was able to pay my rent this month. Next rent isn’t looking so good. I’m scared I’m alone. My Husband has been in treatment for the last 11 months. I don’t know if this will help him or not I don’t know whether I am taking him back or not but what I do know is that I miss my child .I know my brain iisn’t doing what it’s supposed to do. I have to be able to survive this. I have more grandchildren who need me and two daughters left here on earth that wouldn’t know what to do without me and fortunately they don’t live with me because I’m not doing very well.. I I’m just praying for a little help and if you could pray for a little help for me, I would appreciate it because I do believe in prayers.. i’m scared I’m scared. I’m not gonna be able to do this. I love these kids from the day they were bored and did good. I thought I was a good mother. I had no idea that your judge on if you can keep your children alive. I don’t know how many times I’ve heard I wasn’t the greatest mother, but look all my kids are alive and inside my soul it dies just a little bit more., maybe I was not hard enough on them. Maybe I was too hard on them. Maybe I didn’t pay enough attention but right now I need help from you.. I’m not trying to raise enough money for a house. God knows. I’ll never deserve that. Hell I can’t even keep my own child alive. I just need a little help. If you could help me meet my goal at least then I can catch up on my bills and take care of the things. I need to take care of. I don’t know if I’ll pay my if I’ll be able to pay my rent. My rent is 850 I just want to do what I’m good at because I’m a CNA and I love my people and I take care of them and nothing comes before them other than my own family which I don’t really have a family. I just have my girls and my grandbabies. This is no sob story. My first husband sent me on fire while I was pregnant with my youngest daughter. He just got out of prison. There’s nowhere to hide from him so I might as well just stay here. At least the girls aren’t here to hear it at least the girls aren’t here to know that he knows where I am . I don’t think he would hurt me not after everything and I’m pretty sure that I could take his fat self down now he’s definitely not in his 20 anymore. If just one person will help me it’s just two people will help me. It’s just anybody who help me. I just need out of this mess and I can’t do it alone. I’ve tried so long to do it by myself and I can’t I can’t and I’m scared that I’m gonna be starving on the street and I’m not a street person. I don’t even know how to survive on the street and I don’t want to end up like that.. i’m thank you for any Christian out there because I’m also a Christian and I believe so hardly in the Lord and I know that everything comes in his time but if people don’t know what’s going on how are they supposed to know to help so I’m sending this message out to whoever can help. I believe in the Lord and Savior pray I go to heaven to see my daughter again again I apologize for that picture, but I didn’t want you guys to think that I was a liar. Please help me please.