I really don't know how to say all this so I'm just gonna freestyle and let the words come out however they may. First I wanted to thank each and everyone of you all of the thoughtful and generous messages and offers to you all have given me. I do apologize that I worried everyone. That was not my intention and quite honestly I was not expecting all of you to respond in the way you all have. It has made me realize that I am not alone and people do actually care about me and want the best for me. I have been struggling and without a home for almost a year now and financially cannot get myself up out of the gutter. It's like I'm stuck not being able to move or breathe. I left Portland because it is not a healthy environment for me to live in due to a number of personal events that have happened. I sold everything I had and had to leave my 2 boy cats behind which was one of the hardest things I've had to do. I desperately moved to NC to live with who I thought was a friend but had her own agenda. I'm not going to go into detail but I found out she was only using me to pay her bills and credit cards off. She became emotionally and almost physically abusive towards me. I had to get out of there and started staying in motels. Jumping from state to state looking for somewhere I can call home. Before I knew it I found myself sleeping on the streets and trapped in a emotional and physical depression that I'm trying so hard to overcome. I have had no luck finding work and not to make excuses but it's really hard to not only function but go find work trying to sleep under a tree or empty lot somewhere. And lugging 3 suitcases everywhere especially on job hunts was almost impossible. I have to say being homeless carrying around your belongings people treat you like subhuman. So far I was denied by both ambulance and hospital for a breathing problem. I was pretty much told I was just a homeless person on drugs trying to find a place to sleep. I have been denied using public restrooms and wasn't allowed on public transportation. I have never in my life been treated like I was an animal or something less than human. Anyway enough about all that. I received a generous offer from a fabulous lady who lives near Vancouver BC. She has opened up her home to me for a bit to do what I need to do and get back on my feet. I've always wanted to move there and believe everything happens for a reason. I am asking for any donations to help me get there so I can get on my feet and finally find a place to call home. The money will be going towards a way there and living expenses to stay off the streets until I leave. I've never done anything like this before and feel a little weird about it all and I completely understand if you are unable to help financially. Your moral support has been deeply appreciated. Cheers! I love and appreciate every single one of you!❤️