I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in my early 20's. My first symptom was double vision (the only symptom that had me going to see my family doctor). I'll never forget being home alone listening to my doctor on a voicemail telling me they are very certain I have multiple sclerosis. I broke down and had my first ever panic attack. As anyone probably would. I knew nothing about this MS monster. With time and eyeglasses my vision slowly returned almost to normal.

I had a few good years before I was noticing a shift in mobility, cognitive ability, and fatigue. It wasn't all at once but slow gradual symptoms. Some relapses I went through were more aggressive so my neurologist had me take high amounts of steroids to make it stop but some of the symptoms stayed after the relapse was done. I'm on an immune suppressant to help my body stop attacking itself. I think I've tried 3 different ones until I found this one that seems to help now. A needle I give myself once a month.

That was the beginning and fast forward to today. I'm 34 and now bedridden going on a year I think. My right side barely works anymore. My left side is slowly getting stronger so I'm blessed to still have one side. A lift is used to lift me out of bed into my wheelchair and I can't be left alone when I'm not in bed because to much can go badly. So I don't get out of the house let alone go anywhere. With winter coming my world will only get smaller and smaller.

I'm in a constant state of anxiety of what is happening but also what could happen. Everyday is different and I never know how my body will work or what will hurt. When it happens no one tells you how to be disabled, you just learn as you go.

 With the money raised it will go towards a van that is also wheelchair friendly. I'm not sure if I've shared enough but with this money I want to change my world completely. It would take so much weight off my shoulders in so many ways. I would be able to start living again.

I want to thank everyone who has donated thus far. It warms my heart to see all of you helping me improve my life and those around me. I'm eternally grateful and hope I'll see everyone when I roll up in the new wheels.