With a humble and Loving Hand

Its with a humble hand that I type this. I am the last to place my pride in a position to ask for ( for lack of a better word) help.  February 14th of this year my daughters mother and i were hit by someone driving without headlights on in the middle of the night that resulted in injuries, a totalled car, a miscarriage and now a broken home. I have been a roadie working with  action sports and music since the age of 17 . I made a decision on my daughter was born to leave that life behind so i could be present in her life. Since then it has been an uphill battle to make ends meet. Between my daughter being in the NICU for a substantial amount of time, and the amount of times i was told she might not make it, needless to say it turned my world upside down.  I feel as though i have been Playing catch-up since the day she was born.  I have been chasing a career in the film industry for the past two years and have been doing my best to support my daughter and be a present father. I have not ever fully lost hope but recently it has been on the border.  I am grateful to have a God in my life that loves me and continues to show up for me but my faith has been tested left and right. I got certified through the FAA as a remote pilot close to two years ago and have been flying drones ever since attempting to make a living. Between odd jobs, piecemeal work, and construction i have managed to make it this far. That being said, i am in the worst position financially that i have ever been and have the desperation of a drowning man to do whatever it takes to keep food in maisy’s mouth and a roof over her head. I have spend countless hours studying, flying, and doin research on distrubtion towers and as of yesterday i have been cleared by the state of california to work in the field of transmission and distribution.  In short, i have been given the most amazing career opportunity and intend om doing whatever it takes to keep it. I will be collecting data on our distribution poles in attempts to prevent future fires in the state. I recieved the highest grade in my class on the closed book exam and got 100% on my flying test. Ill get to the point, i will be starting this job in the field in the next week or two but as of now my utilities are being and phone are being shut off, my start up costs for this job are outrageous ( new drone, fire gear, rental car etc ) my rent is unpaid and I am in a tremendous amount of debt that i acquired while my daughter was in the hospital and have been doing my best to chip away at it. Due to my car being totalled i am trying to find a way to get to these remote locations for work but have no means to do so. i despise asking for help financially but i feel like an inadequate father and i cant seem to stop the negative self talk at this point in my life. My daughter is more important than my pride and so i have decided to make this in an attempt to keep our roof. I know that my life is about to change drastically with this new job and i will have the ability to pay off everything i owe and get caught up again. But in the meantime i am at a total loss on what to do.  My daughter and i would be exceedingly grateful for any help. And i would be willing to help out with a film project or any marketing videos as a way to pay for any help i recieve. If you are interested please message me and i can send you links to recent content i have created. As of september 29th, i have officially been sober for 10 years and intend on keeping it that way.  Thank you for taking the time to read this and i hope you have a day filled with love and laughter.