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My name is Kit (they/them) and I am currently living in a conservative, rural town in a Red state as a queer and trans person; I've lived here for several years now, and over that time, I became numb to the homophobic, anti-inclusive environment -- I ignored the overall attitude and outlook on our community the people have here, being misgendered in and out of work, and quieted certain aspects of myself to better fit in.
The past few months have been unearthing something inside me -- Despite reminding my coworkers and friends, I am still misgendered daily, by everyone. Despite me being openly queer to people, I am still audience to Bible-based rhetoric on why it is sinful to be myself. The small Queer community we have here shifts between periods of tense peace when there are no public events going on, to outraged conservatives ready to hurl verbal and physical assault once drag show flyers are posted.
I can no longer ignore these feelings of deep sadness, burning rage, and nihilistic apathy as I once did - It is difficult here, and I can no longer function, much less thrive, while I am living in such a will-breaking environment.
I am lucky to have a friend help me take a trip recently to visit them where they live in a Blue city, in a Blue state. When I tell you that I had tears in my eyes nearly every day at the sight of Out and Proud community, homes and businesses alike hanging pride flags ... It awoke something in me. I miss community. I miss being around others like me.
I've been back in this town for less than three days and already feel myself deflating.
My friend and I have planned on me moving to their city for months, but debt is keeping me from making solidified plans -- it is depressing that, even with my full-time job making the most I have ever made, I am still unable to move forward in today's economy. After bills and trying to chip away at the debt that I have, there is a meager amount to survive off of -- and then once interest hits each month, I am back to where I started. I have started a side hustle to help fluff these moments, but it is slow to start.
I am needing financial help to pay off the debt that I have accrued so that I am able to plan this life-changing move. Your donation will help additionally by helping me prepare for the move (buying packing boxes, gas, deposits) itself.
I want to not only survive in this one life, but to thrive so that I am able to be fully present for others who will need my help when the time comes. If you are able to help me through this time by donating any funds or by sharing this, thank you.