I have been on a great healing adventure for nineteen years now. I have used this time to accumulate amazing ways to help people and for them to heal. I have all the tools to help myself, but am very light on support and resources at the moment.
I originally became ill in 2002 and had more things wrong than one person can imagine. I had also manage to marry Darth Vadar at this time and most people think this was the root of my ills, but a lifetime of trauma, toxicity and quite frankly sick care did me in. I hit the who's who of the best in medicine and psychology. No one seemed to be able to help me. I realized at this point if I was going to live I was going to have to save myself. I know that I have had to go through what I have to be able to figure out how to really help people heal, physically and mentally. I have almost died quite a few times over the last nearly 20 years. I am not afraid to die, I am however afraid to go before I have my work written down.
In 2015 my father's health began to decline and my family is historically very dysfunctional. I needed to walk away but didn't and I am paying for it now, but I know in my heart that making sure my mother was okay was the right thing to do, but now I am the one who needs the support.
I also have been walking around with the cure for addiction and mental illness for a good decade in my head. Yes, we do not need to be suffering and anyone who had been to me know's if there is something wrong...I will get to the root of it. The real root all this has taught me is that our professionals are painfully lacking in tools to actually heal people. The good news is that I have all the tools to help myself.
I have been diagnosed with 9 inch complex mass called a teratoma. It has hair and teeth. So basically I tried to grow my own kid again because I have always wanted a family. I am going to have surgery tomorrow on 6/24. We won't know if it is cancerous until path reports come back, but I do not think it is, but this is the second one and I know I have got to take care of my health or I won't be here much longer. I weigh around 100 pounds and I am 5'9". I have spent my entire 30's and 40's trying to figure out how to really help people heal and I need to get it down before I am not here anymore. People should not be suffering the way that they are but our professionals do not have enough tools to really help people. I need to be off work for at least 3 months to get my health back and in that time I know I can get The Healing Puzzle Solved done as well.
My health insurance went up to $975 a month and until I am through this mess I cannot change it. I do not have the resources right now to heal or take time off work. I have already lost quite a bit of work and don’t have the strength right now to do much. I cannot go on disability or anything like that because I work for myself. If I do not work I do not make money
I know how I got here, I know how to fix it just need some support. I will come out better than ever and with more healing tools for everyone I am sure.
I will be fine and be able to write The Healing Puzzle Solved while I am down so everyone will finally have the tools they need to help with everything from anxiety to addiction to even something like this which I am working on as I even write. Everyone is always bugging me about when will it be done, but they do not understand I am a one woman show with no family basically and health from horrible events that started in 2002. I can never stop working. If I don’t work I don’t make money and yes I take insurance so I do not make the kind of money people imagine I do. I just don’t think it’s fair only wealthy people have access to me. I have clients that their 10 and 20 dollar copays are a lot for them. More than anything I need to teach what I do and have it available to everyone. I also need to save my life so I can do that.
I am a helper and a giver so it is difficult for me to think the saver needs saving right now. If I have ever helped you or your loved ones I would appreciate whatever you can give right now. I have to save my own life and need your help right now.
I am so grateful. ❤️www.DrAmelia.com
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