Help Christine keep Ken Zanowski's house

I have managed to keep things going for 7 months now since Ken died. Unfortunately, I am at the point of being almost completely out of cash until I can figure out this new plan. I know so many people asked back when Ken died how they could help, or what I needed.

I want to keep our house and I'm begging for a little help until I can get on my feet.

This has been the most awful, horrible, and lonely six months of my life. I've been trying so hard.

I thought that the offer I accepted on the house was valid, but it instead turned out to be from jerks who wouldn't even accept closing credits, only insisting I fix things I couldn't afford, because free house, yay. On top of that, explaining over and over to a realtor how I need to sell as is because of insolvency, who screwed me over too.

It seems like since Ken died, it's just been a parade of people taking, taking, taking. I can't anymore. My spirit is completely broken, and my urge to care about anything slips further and further away.

I'm a month behind on the mortgage thinking we were going to close.

I don't know what to do. I want to cry, scream, and break everything until it all looks as ugly as I feel.

I can't get care credit or loans, I've tried but my credit is worse now that i lost the boost from being on Kens cards. He was helping me fix my credit, and his cards being shut down sent my credit into a black hole. The only last thing I can do is this, or start to sell off Ken's things like he told me to do.

I'm tired of having a glimmer of hope then watching it crash, again and again. I'm so sorry to ask everyone for help, but I don't know what else to do. I'm so completely heartbroken I'm at this point, and exhausted. Please help, you have no idea how much it would mean to me and how much I'd appreciate it.

I haven't asked anyone for anything this whole time, but attempting and failing (which is ok in the long run) to sell the house cost me almost 3 grand that I could have used differently. Also, selling made me realize how much I absolutely love our house, and how I just simply cannot walk away from the place we built in love. I love Ken even beyond a place death can't reach, and leaving this house would be more tragic to my mental health than I realized.

I do have my lawyer attempting to sell the interests I inherited in another property as well, but I need to catch up quickly from being screwed over in my failed attempt to sell.

I am also putting the things ken loved on ebay to attempt to keep our house, which makes me so sad but I have no other options.