Startup Costs To Save My Farm And Family

I lost my job in January and haven't worked since. With the Coronavirus I haven't been able to get work. I have gone through all my money and am months behind now on all my bills. Last year i got sick and have medical bills and can't fathom being able to pay. I have a family, they are three horses, a donkey, a pig, a cat and a dog. I have been on my own since I was 16. I fought hard every day to live, and finally in my 40s I fought to get this farm. And now I can't my family or myself because I can't find a job. I have not eaten in a while, I have 0$ left. I went through my savings and 401k. I don't know why you would help me. But maybe you would help me help my family. I found a way to make money and pay back all those horses that got me through my childhood. It wasn't a good one. Animals have always been my comfort. But becauseof the Coronavirus, my credit is now bad and I can't get a loan. I want to run a business. It's called PEMF and its proven to help. Clinical trials, studies, all that, look it up. All that's standing between me and a life I could create, rather than the destitution and starvation Im facing is the the money I need to buy the PEMF device. I would delight in not only working but donating my services to rescues and sanctuaries. Helping ease pain. Again, I have no idea why anyone would help me. I've been on my own since the day I was born. I have been fighting to stay functioning in this world my whole life but now, on this day... i don't know how to fight any more. I need to work, to make money. I need to feed my animals. I have a way, I just can't make it happen without help. The machine that best fits my needs and goal costs $18,950. At this time I can not get financing. Right now I have nothing, I am tired scared and my horses are hungry. They didn't ask for this.