Hello Everyone!!

my name is Phoenix Rose, making one of these isn’t easy. But I have to, because I’m in desperate need of help!

in 2018, I suffered a back injury that led to my suicide attempt in 2019. Then in 2020, I lost my beloved grandmother. I unfortunately didn’t get to attend her funeral due to the pandemic. I’ve been having an INCREDIBLY HARD time processing all of my grief.

on top of that, I believe the jobs I’m applying for are possibly discriminating against me for being a Transgendered Woman, and for having a pretty decent resume. I’ve worked in the retail industry for nearly 10 years, and was on my way to the assistant program for a pretty popular retail company.

I unfortunately relocated without transferring, because the nearest store wasn’t so near. I was in the city of New York, and it was in Jersey!

I’M DEVASTATED!

I’ve applied for job after job, gone to interview after interview, but nothing is sticking!

I was recently hired at a VERY popular amusement park!

However, the 3 hour commute on public transportation to and from the park, made it impossible for me to even get through the training!!

Not to mention, I’m a walking target!

the position I was hired for made it possible for the park guests to challenge my authority…. WITH THEIR VEHICLES!!!

yes, I was nearly struck by a vehicle for being black and “Queer” appearing.

I’ve been struggling with severe anxiety and panic attacks, since surviving my suicide attempt in 2019. But after having someone look me in the eyes, just before charging their vehicle at me has me FRAZZLED!

I couldn’t even complete my training at the amusement park, I was so shaken up!

I don’t even feel comfortable sharing this, because the company has a strict confidentiality policy!

I’m emotionally, mentally, and physically drained.

Not just from what happened at the amusement park, but from the state of the world!

all of the deaths, the inflation/price gouging, the endless job hunting, being trapped in a man’s body, constantly being misgendered, not being able to make my rent, and not being able to take a moment to catch my breath because I’m always stressing over how I’m going to afford my basic necessities!

The fear of ending up just another homeless dreamer on the streets of California is killing me.

I can’t see a way out.

I’m holding onto my faith the best way I know how, by praising God through dancing & singing freely for hours at the park I went to die at in 2019.

It’s my form of therapy & meditation.

However, even that’s physically taxing and emotionally draining!

I truly do need a miracle.

to everyone that’s already made a donation, thank you, thank you, THANK YOUUU!!!

you truly have no idea how much you are appreciated!!

Thank you all so much again for all of your love & support!