“Malinda Ann Hill decided to resume treatment for her eating disorder almost as soon as she shifted to working remotely in March 2020.”
Trapped in the House With an Eating Disorder
By Virginia Sole-Smith
The New York Times
March 31, 2021
It has been very difficult to share my story and ask for the help I need. I've been struggling greatly with eating disorder relapses. PTSD, anxiety and depression exacerbated by the pandemic and the stalking I have experienced for over 11 years.
On March 23, 2020, I was admitted to a virtual partial hospital program (PHP) because I could not go to the residential program that was recommended because I am a single parent and my daughter was still attending high school.
On May 20, 2020, I had my 2nd ulnar nerve surgery that cost over $1,800 with insurance.
On June 30, 2020, I was discharged from a virtual PHP because I could not afford to continue treatment and I had to return to work.
On January 31, 2021, I filed another police report due to the continued stalking which hastened another relapse.
On March 15, 2021, I was re-admitted to a virtual PHP for eating disorders.
On May 14, 2021, I was unexpectedly discharged from the PHP because the virtual program suddenly closed.
On May 17, 2021, I was admitted to a virtual intensive outpatient program (IOP) for mental health.
On June 1, 2021, I was placed on the waiting list for an assessment with another virtual PHP for eating disorders.
On July 20, 2021, I was suddenly discharged from the IOP because the team recommended a higher level of care.
On August 7, 2021, I filed another police report due to the continued stalking and harassment.
On August 17, 2021, I was admitted to another virtual PHP for eating disorders.
On August 31, 2021, I received a letter from human resources informing me that my employment status would be terminated effective October 1 because the organization cannot continue to hold my position because doing so would cause undue hardship on the organization.
On September 27, 2021, I was admitted to an in-person PHP for eating disorders.
On October 1, 2021, I lost my job of nearly 20 years.
On October 27, 2021, I had my 3rd ulnar nerve surgery that cost over $1,800 with insurance.
On October 29, 2021, I attended my last day at the PHP because they don't accept Medicaid.
On October 31, 2021, I lost my health insurance.
On November 1, 2021, I began the arduous process of finding treatment providers that accept Medicaid.
On November 3, 2021, I began individual therapy with a trauma therapist who accepts Medicaid.
On February 2, 2022, I required dental treatment that cost over $5,500 and was not covered by Medicaid.
On March 4, 2022, I contacted several residential programs but they don't accept Medicaid.
On March 11, 2022, I began the evaluation process with an in-patient program for weight restoration and research studies.
On March 15, 2022, I marked one year since I re-entered treatment. It has been 4 1/2 months since I had to leave the in-person PHP and I continue to struggle greatly with my eating disorder, depression, anxiety, and PTSD.
While it has been a difficult year, I am extremely grateful for the financial and emotional support I have received from family, friends and people who care. I promise to pay it forward as soon as I can so others have access to the treatment they need.
Malinda Ann Hill