FxCK CANCER! Help Ash Williams

An update from Ash

"As my situation changes, I want to keep people up-to-date as best as I can. I recently had my periodic CT and MRI imaging done, and the results are less than ideal to say the least. Two of my three tumors are starting to grow, meaning the year+ I put into naturopathic research and treatment was of no use

Due to the type of cancer that it is, chemo/radiation is not advisable at this time. 

With this news of my condition being 100% chronic, I need to take a new approach to how I address life. Palliative and mental healthcare needs to take precedent over all. I need to find comfort and peace in my situation. I am basically no income right now, taking small amounts of financial aid to maintain, but this does not equip me to do important things in life like make repairs to my car or partake in a lot of the things that keep me grounded, entertained, or otherwise preoccupied from thinking about my situation. 

I'm autistic, have ADHD and PTSD, so every day is a struggle. Not being able to remove myself mentally from this elephant in the room has taken an extremely unhealthy toll on my mental health, so I'm asking for some financial support so I can focus on my health and heal from the pain and grief this disease has caused me. I need to be able to create, build, and wander. I feel so trapped in my situation that I am overwhelmed more often than not.

If you can, please donate to or share this fundraiser. It would mean the world to me to meet this goal and be able to have the freedom to express myself and get away from the weight of stage IV pancreatic NET cancer. It's not going away, so I need to move forward. 

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful day."

Original post.

From Ash themselves, a long read but please take the time to read through.

"In January, I was diagnosed with stage IV cancer for a third time, and my doctors gave me no worthwhile prognosis. In February, my dog of sixteen years and only familial bond died. In April I had a pretty emotional falling out with my best friend because he couldn't stop hurting me. In May, I lost a city job because I was struggling with everything going on in my life and, when I requested an interactive ADA discussion with HR to address my mental disabilities, my manager had me fired. This was shortly after a whistleblowing incident I was a part of, and she was NOT happy that I went over her head. I filed a BOLI complaint and, after several long months, BOLI finally contacted me. They require a lot of detailed information, so I requested a public records release from said company. The company that already fired me discriminately is now seeking roughly $1000 to collect public information I requested from them.

Then in June I called an old contractor I worked for in the past. He said he would help me, but ultimately did not give me the hours I needed to survive and, one day after asking him to keep my tools in order if he uses them, he grabbed me by the collar and put me up against the back door of the property. I gathered my stuff and left.

Then in July I started working with another contractor. He had a new company, but presented himself to be doing well. This guy wouldn't show up to job sites, made me work intense hours that my cancer-ridden body couldn't handle, and ultimately did not pay me over $4,000 after several jobs were completed. He eventually ghosted me so I've had to file a small claims case, which doesn't begin until March. We also had a very problematic roommate move in around that time that caused even more unnecessary problems.

Then, in August, after failed attempt after failed attempt at gainful employment, I gave up on trying to find work that would accommodate me/not treat me like garbage while I'm already suffering immensely, and applied for disability, and enrolled in school.

In October, after taking a month off between roommates, we moved a new guy in. After the second month he was unable to pay rent, and I have had to pay $1300+ in other people's rent while not working and living on about $800/month financial aid over the course of the last two months. After threatening to fight me and other roommates several times, even after not paying rent or utilities, he essentially claimed eminent domain over the room he occupies until he's ready to leave, and we can't immediately do anything about it.

Problem after problem just keeps showing up in my life. I am struggling in life and in school because there are so many external issues happening one right after another, and I am in dire need of help. I am autistic, have PTSD and ADHD, and am still struggling with stage IV pancreatic cancer. I have been sober for years, in therapy, and doing everything else that I can to get my life on track, but I can't handle any more financial insecurity and haven't even been able to afford to do things to decompress and get away from the compounding stress. I am just learning how to unmask my autism and find myself very isolated due to the past year of trauma.

I don't want to beg the world for money again, but I don't know what else to do. There are several irons in the fire to hopefully rectify these past situations, but nothing that will remedy my situation in a timely manner. I am asking my community to understand how far I've come in my recovery and personal growth, how much I am truly in need right now, and help me make it out of last year with some hope. Anything at all helps. Thank you to whoever is reading this."

Thank you please donate! Not one more friend needs to struggle, we have the means to help one another when all else fails! All our struggle!