Money for Rent and Neccessities

Hello I'm Lucca. A trans nonbinary man trying to get by in Washington state. And i need a little extra help with rent and other neccessities like toiletries atm.

Ever since i was a little kid I've been in bad and often unstable situations. I was neglected as a child, left alone at home, sometimes going hungry. I had to learn for care for myself and was therefore not taught basic life skills. From there i went into foster care at 13. When i aged out of foster care i had nowhere to go and ended up at my disabled mom's. I was still finishing high school while starving as my mom's caregiver told her she was not allowed to share her disability money with me to get food. I was turned down for food stamps at the time as i was under 21 and still lived with my mom. From this pattern of childhood trauma and instability i began to seek out romantic relationships, relying on different men to get by. Which led to abuse at times. It was during this unstable situation that i had two children that i ended up being taken away by cps and eventually i allowed them to be adopted so they could have a better life. In 2013 or so i finally thought i was in the last relationship of my life. I married my husband Jonathan in 2014 but his health began to decline rapidly. It was due to my husband's poor health i racked up several thousand dollars worth of credit card debt. So because of that i no longer have credit i can rely on now. In 2016 my husband passed away. He had a couple of seizures and his heart stopped. Me and Jonathan had a son and were living with his mom at the time he passed away. Unfortunately my mother in law was extremely abusive towards me. I found living with her very difficult. I fell in love again a bit later and tried to move me and son in with my new partner but my ex mother in law wasn't having it and sued me for custody of my son/her son grandson. I gave her custody so that my son Liam could have a roof over his head while i struggled to get on my feet and be well as a person myself. After a few years in my next relationship i realized that I'm actually not okay. After all these years my mental health is very bad and i need a lot of help both physically and mentally to recover from all the trauma during my life, cope with depression, anxiety and other things. I also realized some things about myself at the time, like that I'm trans.

So breaking up with my ex I've set out on a journey to make my life better and be happy. To live for me the first time in my life. To put myself first for the first time in my life. Unfortunately i struggle with the same things I've always struggled with, instability, struggling to get a job, bad mental and sometimes psychical health. I'm really trying, i put in job applications all the time, i even applied to college here but unfortunately since i just came back to my home state from out of state I'm unsure I'll be able to get a full grant. There's also been a ton of obstacles since moving here such as having mice and roaches in my apartment. I do have food stamps so I'm able to pay for food but i really need to keep this roof over my head. There isn't anywhere else i can go. I don't have any family left hardly, and they don't have room for me even if i did and i don't want to end up in a new relationship solely to have a roof over my head. And i don't wish to end up homeless again. Especially as a shelter here may not be trans friendly. I just want a job, to work hard and make money for myself but I'm struggling and I'm only one person. I hate to ask for help again but i am. I just need a break from all the life hell. Thank you for reading.