Grieving family in desperate need of help

This year has been absolute hell for me and my family.

I nearly lost my life in late January.

I also lost my father in July.

My father was my entire world. My rock that would help me if I were sad, struggling, bored and wanted to complain about politics and just about anything else that I can think of.

All of that was ripped from my chest on the morning of July 28th, 2024, when I found out my best friend of 35 years was chosen to go home. To my grandmother and his baby brother and sister.

I have had help while job searching to get myself back on track and it has been a nightmare. I have had almost 7 or 8 interviews in 2 months. Dressed appropriately, spoke respectfully and for some reason...no call back.

I went from having an inability to not land a job to it becoming next to what seems impossible.

I do not know what I am doing that is making everything so difficult.

I am completely lost without my father. I know I depended on him to help, but it was never intentional. I absolutely hate asking for help and handouts. It is embarrassing and humiliating being a grown man.

I have 2 little boys who I am trying my absolute hardest to take care of and the bills are becoming more than I can stomach.

I am not placing blame. I understand that by now in my life, I should have it together. And I did.

I was ripped out of nursing school with a medical condition that makes it borderline impossible to be a nurse. I spent 2 years in school chasing that career.

I spent about 30-35 days total in the hospital, fighting for my life.

I was placed on dialysis and diagnosed with kidney failure and severe liver disease.

I have miraculously recovered from both and had my surgically implanted ports removed from my body.

I had to relearn to walk again...relearn to be myself again.

I am coming up on 7 months of total sobriety and I should be happier about that, but I do not feel happy. I feel helpless.

I am asking for any help whatsoever that can be donated to help me keep my rent paid for at least the next month so I can continue my job search.

I have records of proof of just how hard I have been trying to find employment with no luck.

I fought for my life, and I crushed it.

Now I am fighting for my family.

Please anybody. If you can, I am asking for your help.

Thank you all who can help. With anything.