As much as I wish I didnt need help in my life, it seems to be the case… Sadly being around the holidays. I had spent about 24 years as a single mom.. Even though it was a struggle, Ive never been more blessed.

i waited until the kids (3) were starting on their own, and I would work hard at my dreams, etc. Sadly, in 2020 I about lost my life with a colon rupture, and sepsis. Which also in turn cracked half my teeth out due to the emergency. I then have been losing my hair constantly since. Cannot afford any treatment- so just struggle & suffer Since then, I have worked as hard as I could to work from home, and care for sweet babies - which was my background, education & experience. Being a Doula/Educator/ Nanny. I have continued to struggle with my health (stomach), being in & out of the hospital & surgical procedures in between. I still am so grateful I survived.! In the past several months my car stopped working, i havent found a job to just survive. Cant pay for food or basics. Ive been struggling needing a serious surgery, no support or partner for support. Im so worried with all Im facing. And try to stay positive by any means. I lost my amazing Husky, then my only family I have near me, is over 80 and could use my help more than vise versa. It takes a year to get or be approved for disability. Im so overwhelmed & cannot catch a break. Seems to have been the case for. Years. Sadly.

i cannot move forward in a positive way, and grow with all my dreams that I had prayed for. But I wont stop attempting too. I hate to ask for any support, it is just heartbreaking to me. But I am at the end of my rope with almost no other options. Although, I have got to get some help, I so pray it will happen. I am at a loss to get to a point for the remainder of my life. Where I can do some great things in this world as well as get my health to a bearable point.

if anyone has read this I am so appreciative, and blessed by you.

i know that I am not a “star” or a queen. But I can tell you I would work my hardest to make a difference in this world, if given the opportunity. Thank you for blessing me, if your able. If not, a prayer would mean the world to me:

Blessings with my entire heart!!