Hello my name is Pamela clay and I’m 46 I have 5 children and 4 grand babies I’m from Albany Ga , I moved to Florida in Aug of this year, at the time my plan was to move here with my oldest daughter to make sure my youngest son be straight when I leave here because I suppose to have surgery this month because I have cervical cancer and I got to have it asap so I was thinking like I’m already down bad done lost almost everything so I will just move to Florida and let it play out without having the surgery because I can leave my youngest son here with my daughter. I was ok with my decision because I wasn’t committing suicide so I still can go to Heaven with my mom and dad , but maybe a month and a half ago I cried and Prayed to God and was asking him , am I doing the right thing because I’m so tied I’m going through so much and with my health issue it was not helping I really look like what I’m going through and it hurt so bad. But as I was riding one day doing some orders I passed by 3 people…a man had one leg hopping up and down the road with a sigh asking for food , a young boy was sleeping in Walmart parking lot laying on the ground and the last one was a lady with 2 babies sitting outside a store smiling telling people God Bless you all. I cried so hard and begged God to forgive me for my thoughts because I knew right then God was not just telling me he was showing me it’s people out here got it worse then me but still get up and live life so who am I to chose my death date . So with that being said I want to have the surgery but i don’t have the money anything will help I know some people gone be negative and talk down on me but trust me every one go through something even millionaires some just carry it very well but that silent hurt is dangerous. But Thanks in advance to anyone that can help me and God Bless You and if you can’t just send a Prayer up for me. THANKS!!