Support Survivors to Keep on Surviving
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A couple of months ago, one of my biggest fears since becoming a parent, came to life. I found out that the person I once thought I knew and loved so deeply stole my child’s innocence. The father of my youngest two children, the man I trusted most, turned out to be the one person I could not trust at all.
My name is Christina, I am a survivor myself and a mama to five beautiful children. This is our story.
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When all of this came to light I was overcome with emotions. Anger, sadness, confusion, heartache, fear. As a mother, I never wanted my children to experience the same pain I once endured. Although, I was afraid for what would come, I had to put that fear aside to protect my children. I knew it wasn’t going to be an easy road to embark on. I had no idea how I was going to be able to do it all alone but I was determined that I would not fail them as I had once been failed. So I stood up and fought for them. However, the battle isn’t over yet, it’s only just beginning.
There is a significant amount of grief and trauma that comes with all of this. Between working on trying to heal those wounds and navigating the processes of the judicial system it has been mentally and physically exhausting. Appointments, hearings, meetings, therapy, sicknesses, mental health struggles and all of the in-between. All of this has taken a huge toll on our family. Especially my children.
Nothing can compare to my children’s feelings and what this has done to them. However, this has been extremely difficult for me as well. I have my own trauma and grief to process while also carrying the weight of everything else. I am often faced with making decisions where I’ll lose no matter what choice I make. Having to choose between booking jobs or making sure my children are getting the care they need to have a fighting chance at healing is not an easy decision to make. However, I am all they have now. If I don’t do it, who will?
Now we are being faced with even more devastation. Unfortunately, all of our bills are now in default. We are at an immediate risk of losing the only small part of normalcy we have left, our home.
I feel defeated. I was not prepared for the aftermath and all that has come with it. Although, I don’t know how anyone could have possibly prepared for something like this. You know the statistics but you never think it could happen to you. Until it does.
We are on the verge of truly losing it all. My family needs support if we are going to be able to make it through this. There have been many times lately I have felt so defeated. However, I am not giving up. After all that we have been through the last couple of months, I cannot bare the thought of my children experiencing more pain.
I am a very private person so talking about all of this is extremely hard for me. Putting myself out there and asking for support is even more difficult.
We can make it through this, I know we can. We have overcome so much already. We have to.
My name is Christina, I am a survivor myself and a mama to five beautiful children. This is our story.
https://youtube.com/shorts/_s8wBszA1gA?feature=share
When all of this came to light I was overcome with emotions. Anger, sadness, confusion, heartache, fear. As a mother, I never wanted my children to experience the same pain I once endured. Although, I was afraid for what would come, I had to put that fear aside to protect my children. I knew it wasn’t going to be an easy road to embark on. I had no idea how I was going to be able to do it all alone but I was determined that I would not fail them as I had once been failed. So I stood up and fought for them. However, the battle isn’t over yet, it’s only just beginning.
There is a significant amount of grief and trauma that comes with all of this. Between working on trying to heal those wounds and navigating the processes of the judicial system it has been mentally and physically exhausting. Appointments, hearings, meetings, therapy, sicknesses, mental health struggles and all of the in-between. All of this has taken a huge toll on our family. Especially my children.
Nothing can compare to my children’s feelings and what this has done to them. However, this has been extremely difficult for me as well. I have my own trauma and grief to process while also carrying the weight of everything else. I am often faced with making decisions where I’ll lose no matter what choice I make. Having to choose between booking jobs or making sure my children are getting the care they need to have a fighting chance at healing is not an easy decision to make. However, I am all they have now. If I don’t do it, who will?
Now we are being faced with even more devastation. Unfortunately, all of our bills are now in default. We are at an immediate risk of losing the only small part of normalcy we have left, our home.
I feel defeated. I was not prepared for the aftermath and all that has come with it. Although, I don’t know how anyone could have possibly prepared for something like this. You know the statistics but you never think it could happen to you. Until it does.
We are on the verge of truly losing it all. My family needs support if we are going to be able to make it through this. There have been many times lately I have felt so defeated. However, I am not giving up. After all that we have been through the last couple of months, I cannot bare the thought of my children experiencing more pain.
I am a very private person so talking about all of this is extremely hard for me. Putting myself out there and asking for support is even more difficult.
We can make it through this, I know we can. We have overcome so much already. We have to.
Organizer
Christina Varney
Organizer
Cocoa, FL