Help fund my DID assessment

Hi, I'm Chris. I've recently experienced a profound and disorienting shift in my mental health, one that has left me with questions I never thought I'd be asking about myself.

What is happening?

During a recent period of intense emotional strain involving someone close to me, I found myself behaving in ways I can't fully explain. I've been left with gaps in my memory, vague flashes of things I said and did which are against my personal values, and unreasonable emotional tones that don't feel like they belong to me. In some moments, I've had the disturbing sense of experiencing more than one sensation of consciousness, one controlling my body, performing actions and communicating in ways I couldn't control, and one locked in an internal trance-like state, only partially aware of the events unfolding.

Since then, I've started re-evaluating other moments from my past: episodes of emotional shutdown, uncharacteristic actions performed out of compulsive urges, and noticeable stretches of detachment from myself or reality. What I once dismissed as stress or personal weakness is now part of a larger, more confusing picture. My reality feels like it is no longer my own. I feel like the foundation of who or what I even am has been shattered.

After a psychiatric evaluation with a UK psychology services provider, it's become clear that I may be experiencing some form of dissociative identity disorder. Therefore, I need a formal clinical assessment to find out for sure.

Why Not NHS?

The SCID-D assessment is available through the NHS, but the wait time is up to six months, and it would likely require in-person appointments I can't attend due to my physical disabilities. Because this situation has already caused a serious breakdown within my family, there is an urgent need to understand what's happening now so I can begin an appropriate form of therapy based on the assessment result.

What will your support cover?

A full SCID-D interview with a psychiatrist specialising in dissociative disorders

A diagnostic report that will go to myself and my doctor

Recommendations on how to proceed with therapy and which types of therapy would be appropriate

Total cost £1440

Why does this matter?

I'm not looking for a label; I'm looking for truth and clarity. I need to know whether these experiences are signs of a real dissociative disorder, just a trauma response, or something else entirely. Once I understand what's going on, I can begin to heal, not just for me but for the people I care about who have been impacted too.

As someone who is housebound with multiple chronic illnesses and living on a fixed salary, I can't afford this assessment alone. But with your help, I can finally get the answers and support I need.

Whether you're able to donate, share, or simply send messages of support, I'm deeply grateful. Thank you for believing me, even when I feel like I've lost the ability to believe myself.

From somewhere inside,

Chris