Hey!

my name is leonie, most of you may know me from online.

I have been living on my own since I'm 16, moving out of an abusive home into a children's home for women and girls. I started working very early, but I was never able to save money for myself. I never had the opportunity to deepen my education, get a drivers license or even focus on my mental health (I have BPD, C-PTSD and am autistic)

Currently I work a full time retail job driving to work almost 2 hours because I can't find a flat/room near my job.

I live in an WG with three men, two of them been bullying me and making false statements about me towards our landlord. I have called the cops a few weeks ago because I found drugs(c0caine) in our mailbox, and after I handed it to the police one of these men told me it was his and a fight broke out over me calling the cops. It has been uncomfortable living here since then. The other man (his friend) is always acting hostile towards me, accusing me of not cleaning up after myself, leaving every light on over night/while I'm away and always being loud. My fiance and I know that I do none of those things, I am barely home because of my long way to work, and I don't cook because I don't have the time. I mostly eat microwaved pre cooked rice.

The hostility towards me has gotten so bad after the drug incident, and I am almost certain they are trying to get me kicked out for that, there is no other reason. I'm not loud, dirty or mean. They have complained in their letter about me leaving my personal hygiene products out in the bathroom, which hasn't been an issue for MONTHS (I lived here for a year now)

They have also stated that I leave food out in the kitchen to rot. I have a severe eating disorder and because of that, and not having a lot of time I don't cook AT ALL and only eat microwaved products at work or at home. But with four people living here, how am I supposed to prove that?

An issue also has been me "not cleaning properly/at all".

Months ago, when I wasn't home for a longer period of time, I announced it and they told me I don't have to do a cleaning chore if I'm not home anyways. Suddenly it is a problem. I did my chore a few days ago, and one flatmate even SAW me doing it, and after I asked him if he has an issue with me leaving my hairdryer (which EVERYONE has been using btw) on a shelf, which he said was fine.

I have talked to my landlord, and told him about the drugs and the ongoing bullying towards me, where he told me they tried to have me kicked out saying "I disturb the peace" but also promising me it won't be the case.

I have now received a warning letter from my landlord, with all of the issues stated above. It's almost impossible for me to prove it wrong, because how are you supposed to prove you're not leaving the light on??

I am scared for my life, and I don't know what to do. I have no savings, struggeling each month(which is not a problem for me, I don't need much).

I am scared of being kicked out, I have no where to go, and no family members who can support me. I just want to find a flat or WG room so I can leave this place. I'm confused scared and just helpless. Everything helps, and everything will go towards possible flats, rent and a deposit for a future flat, as well as the costs of moving from one place to another.

I thought I still had time to leave before I get threatened, but this letter puts me at pressure, not being able to prove my innocence.

I know everything is expensive right now, so I don't want much from anybody, I just want to live. This situation is making my mental health deteriorate so badly. Thank you for every share, donation or support in general, you're helping me survive.

Thank you so much