Life after a traumatic brain injury (TBI) in my childhood has left me dealing with mental health issues for the majority of my life. There have been many stops and starts. But I can now proudly say that over the past five years I decided to and have been consistently working towards solutions. I have made some huge strides in these recent years. But as of recently it has been made apparent to me, and to those whom I am under the medical care of, that I may be dealing with far more than I can take on alone. It is with this new knowledge, that I have no other choice than to take a moment to solely address my health; admit to needing help, and begin rebuilding my and my son’s life again from the ground up.
While working a delivery job recently, I had what my Doctor believes was a Petit Mal Seizure. I lost about 15 seconds of my motor functioning and got into a very scary car accident. Upon disclosing such a confusing and embarrassing truth, we are now on the path to mapping out my brain to understand the TBI I endured nearly thirty years ago from a car accident I was unfortunately in as a child. At the beginning of this year, I was put under the care of a well-seasoned and experienced therapist, the director of the mental health clinic where I am seen; and through this person I have since uncovered that it appears the mental health issues I faced over the years were just the tip of the iceberg. Never once did I consider that it was all connected—I always assumed my migraines and space-out moments were independent of one another and just what people went through. Apparently, not so. As I get older, with more and more trials, I am seeing how this brain injury has seriously effected my ability to function at a level that most independent people take for granted.
That said, I am beginning the long process of healing and have bit the bullet, so to speak, to admit that I need to request the support that social services can give me. This takes time—the paperwork, assessments, diagnosis, waiting, and more waiting. It all takes precious time I just do not have unless I request support from friends and caring people in the mean time.
My Doctors and I have concluded that in order to give me the tools to truly heal and begin learning how to live, I must begin seeing a neuropsychology specialist at a clinic in Sacramento, to truly understand my limitations and how to best be treated. To add more difficulty to the situation, my car has recently been repossessed due to failing to make car payments during my most recent injury.
I have spent my entire adult life falling and having to rebuild from scratch because my illness negatively impacts every endeavor. This truth has made it very hard to provide financial stability needed to raise my son. From what the past has proven, if this pause to solely handle my medical does not occur, I will not be in a position to create the safety nets needed for our future.
The program in Sacramento my Doctor has suggested appears to me very promising and I want to have the resources to do this for myself, for my family.
With this time to collect myself, I can begin to go to the specialized treatment facility in Sacramento with a team of neuropsychologists, begin participating in a wide array of support groups and supplementary programs that will give me the ability to create new pathways for my growth. With this strategy, I am hoping to overcome all of these challenges and place myself in a position to give back to my community in regards to mental health and the social services sector; but to firstly give back to my son and our immediate security.
As it currently stands, I have not worked since this most recent incident/injury and have begun this process of applying for the government assistance associated with this sort of situation. I am asking for funds through this gofundme that will help resolve past-due life expenses (car loan, insurance, registration, water, pge, phone bill, garbage and rent) for the immediate time so that I can focus on the medical care and social services support I need to secure for my family. My donations will go towards the immediacy of these said expenses until the proper social services channels approve paperwork. I am simply asking for time.
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