Help a Survivor Rebuild Her Life

I'm a 65-year-old survivor from a very abusive man. I came into the marriage with a house, a nice car, and a dog. I now live in an RV, can't afford the car payments, and lost my dog. This man took everything from me. I can't get a decent divorce from him because he's a liar, and the divorce papers are crap. At least, when I took them to an attorney, that's what she said. He beat me up on my wedding night, tried to drown me (I don't swim), strangled me, grabbed me several times and left marks, and he lied about everything. His narcissistic behavior caused so much stress in my life. I'm trying to make ends meet, but bills keep adding up. I kicked him out for my sanity. Now, I struggle to pay for my rent, electric bill, and a phone. I'm not the kind of person who asks for help, never have my whole life. I feel desperate and sad I'm in this position. God Bless You and Thank You!