Help with Mary's Bucket List & end of life prep

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I've was told recently it is time for me to do my end of life preparation. I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in April of 2019. Quite a shock, but I definitely know that my cancer has been progressing faster lately than it had been. It was already metastasized when we discovered it, it's slow growing, rare form of ovarian cancer (Low Grade Serous). The treatment options and the amount of money spent on discovering new treatment options is much lower than your more common forms of ovarian cancer. That being said, I've been focusing on what we can do to help slow it down or at one point I thought there was a chance of getting in remission - meanwhile I have been doing a really good job of ignoring the fact that I have a terminal disease and it is fatal. I guess I can't ignore it anymore, my medical team has told me it could go very fast at this stage. I think it's time to work on my bucket list, purging my home of all the things I've amassed over the years, and trying to figure out how to pay for the millions of things that insurance doesn't cover.

Asking for asking for help and asking for money for myself is really hard for me (also a bit humiliating). People I know are ask me how they can help and I usually don't know what to say or I say "I will." but I never do let them know, so I'm going to tell you how you can help at least financially. 

The below event has occurred and I did make it to Paris! I honestly don't know how I could have made it there in coach. The flight there was pretty uneventful and it was a direct flight. The flight home had some significant anxiety when I felt like I couldn't breathe. That was tough, I think after feeling like I couldn't breathe for a couple minutes, I let it get into my head and started to panic about how I was going to make it another nine hours.

- My sister and one of my nephews are going to Paris on the 31st of March. Very last minute trip but I have never been to Europe and have always wanted to go. Have never flown business class anywhere or been in a plane that has a lay down bed...

I had decided I was going to pass on the trip and it was actually my oncologist that made me change my mind. My lungs are quite a bit compromised so breathing is tough and I get short of breath very often. There is some concern about how comfortable I'm going to be on the flight because of that not to mention how long the flight is and how fatigued I get. I booked coach seats each way and I've been told flying coach is a bad idea.  I am hoping to be able to fly business class but I also have to spend a lot of money on the expensive thrill of having cancer, adding much better nutrition, treatments that insurance doesn't consider legitimate or simply won't approve, I'm having a hard time justifying a first class ticket. -

I still can't believe I made it to Paris, I had a fabulous time, I kept up with my sister and my nephew so much better than I thought I would be able to. Did quite a bit of sightseeing and while I wish I would have gone there when I was much younger so I could have revisited it several times, I am so glad and grateful I was able to make that trip. I'm not sure how I feel about taking another trip on an airplane anytime soon, but I am hoping to go to my nephew's wedding back in Boston in June. I'm keeping that card open depending on how my lungs progress. Preparing for the Paris trip and trying to make it happen gave me new energy and something to look forward to!