I'M AT MY WITS END

So for about the last almost two years, I have been focused on my life and finally trying to divorce something I should've never even married!

At the young age of 22, I began becoming Sha'Nyia permanently. Boy, was that a mistake. As soon as I started getting breasts, I realized I had trapped Ivan inside of her.

When many of you met me (as Sha'Nyia), even in those moments, I WAS NOT HAPPY! NOWHERE NEAR HAPPY!!! I moved to Austin, Texas, at the beginning of 2016 and began my journey to de-transition. It was going well until my financial situation was in turmoil. I got caught up again! ‍♂️ I slipped back into sex work/Twitter/OnlyFans. I'm sure a lot of you know and understand.

I have been struggling with this life-changing decision for decades, DECADES!!! Fighting soooo many emotions, ups, downs, ins, and outs. I could not remember the last time I even remotely felt like myself.

When I left Austin in 2023, with your help, it was to finally formulate and follow through with this process. I have acquired a great career since then and have been living as my true self ever since. Boy, does that feel GREAT! HOWEVER, it has had its shares of struggles. I have an insurance plan, yet due to the current political climate and rising prices of healthcare, THE STRUGGLE is still very real!

My internal struggle is becoming greater. I feel like I am someone making a mockery of the trans world. I NEVER identified as trans, and that is doing a disservice to my beautiful, brave brothers and sisters!

The expenses are piling up all while I'm fearing for my safety! I finally know exactly who I am and can't remember the last time I saw ALLLLL of him in the mirror. The dysphoria is PAST REAL. It's consuming my every thought! My dreams, nightmares! It's becoming hard to focus.

I KNOW TIMES ARE DIFFICULT FOR ALL OF US. IF EVERY PERSON ON MY PROFILE PAGE SENDS ME $1, I COULD BE HALFWAY THERE.

Sharing my post is just as powerful. You never know who wants to help someone these days, and as the saying goes, a closed mouth will not get fed!!

I know me, and I know I will not give up until it's done!!! I pray that there are people out there that just might help me!