Fighting through 7th surgery. Working to recover.

Hey Facebook -

Well, you know it's pretty bad if I'm doing this, I have almost posted this more than once, but its so hard to ask for help. As many know, I have always been well-employed, solid education, I like to help people - I never dreamed I would be typing something like this the night before Christmas Eve. Very recently, I had my 6th knee surgery in 3 years. 3 years ago, never dreamed one surgery could lead me to where I am today. It all started with a meniscus tear and Sepsis. The Sepsis devoured my knee, and I've now had two sets of implants, then my patellar tendon was torn, and now the infection is back, recently had another major surgery where a different implant was introduced that includes rods into tibia and femur, and through a PICC line, I am on massive amounts of antibiotics. I'm back in the hospital and will be in a hospital bed for the next few months being treated and monitored - but my doctors have been blunt in telling me that it's "highly likely" that I'll lose my leg. I am preparing for the reality that my leg will be amputated, it's simply unreal.

I can't even type those words without pausing to hear how it sounds. I've been in a wheelchair for months, and it's uncertain whether or not I'll walk again (on my own two legs, anyway). Believe me, this is a last resort that I ask for support, this has taken everything from me, there's truly nothing left. None of what has happened could have been planned for, anticipated or "budgeted", please know that. I would have put together a better plan if any of this was foreseen or even seemed possible.

I am out here in Arizona where I have little support. Those who can have done what they can, and I am simply, truly, completely out of options and resources. I have fought hard to come back from these surgeries multiple times, tried to resume golfing, etc, but complications have always arisen, and have lead to yet another surgery. I have quietly fought through years of this, but now, I have lost my job, my apartment and went through all my savings. I cant work or walk, I've done everything trying to keep my head above water, but with this recent hospitalization, it has simply become impossible to survive. Disability benefits are months away, battling with them, but it is a nightmare. I have tried everything and every alternative before posting this. I've kept how serious this has been mostly private, but as of now, I have no other avenues to assistance. My goal is to be able to survive this, continue working through this with my surgeons - and beat this, but without support, I just don't see a way through this. Here are some pics not to scare anyone, but to assure you this is very real.

Thank you for anything you may be able to contribute, and please, be grateful this Christmas! Love you.