Help me get to rehab!

Hi! My name is Avrohom.

I came to rehab the first time nine months ago. Ever since then, it’s been a roller coaster of some of the best, and unfortunately some of the lowest, moments of my life. But, I always went because someone wanted me there. If I didn’t go, I’d lose this or lose that. I always had a reason to be there, to make someone happy, to keep my car, etc. Never because I wanted to be. The past five weeks I lived in my car, I have nothing left. The support I was trying to ‘make happy’ saw thru that and left me to get better thru my own doing. This time, I want to go. I don’t need to. I have a job, a great job offer, where I can start this week making big bucks. I can keep my car, get an apartment, figure everything out. But I know that won’t last. It can’t last because, if I pick up even one drink or pill, it’s over. That job will be lost. The car will be no longer. My amazing ‘life’ I cud have, will be built on straws. All it would take is one blow to lose everything. Now I realize that I need rehab. Not to save my car. Not because I want a bed to sleep in. Because I want to live. And at this point, I don’t care about anything else other than my life. So as uncomfortable as I am asking for your help, I really need it to stay alive. I’m looking forward anxiously for the day to soon come where I can give back to someone else of what I’m asking of you now. I know it’s going to be rough! I know that I have to listen to whatever I’m told. And as hard as that is going to be, I know I need to in order to live a life that I want. I found two rehab options and I need to get some cash in order to get to the place as not everything is covered by insurance 100%. I’m committed more than I’ve ever been before. Thank you and may god bless you!