Help Me Help Jesse One Last Time

Whoever may be taking the time to read this , first off Thankyou . Secondly , you may not know me , my brother or family and the bond we had . I know the words I choose to write here are not easy , and I’m struggling with how to say it . My brother took his own life on Thursday , October 24th , 2019 in the afternoon hours . I was told just a short hour afterwards . And I have been struggling to piece it together and let it register . He battled with severe depression , anxiety and a list of mental problems , along with self medicating with drugs and alcohol for the most part of his life . The darkness and demons he had finally won , no matter how much or how hard or how many people reached out to him , he lost that fight . It was too much . I am asking for any and everyone to help with the financial part of expenses from this unexpected and extreme loss . Jesse touched a lot of hearts and some saw the bad parts and some saw the good parts of him . No one will ever truly know how big his heart was . I am still in the beginning process of finding out how much is needed for the expenses , so I’m putting a high amount on here , I know we won’t need this much but I don’t want to go under budget either . Anything donated will help , and anything left over after the expenses will be put into a trust fund type thing for his son in jesses name , he is 12 and never really got to see his son . He lived states away and Jesse wanted to get his life together before he spent time with Noah because he didn’t want his son to see the bad life he was living . He wanted Noah to be proud of him and to have his life together more before he could take on the role of being a dad , but with the depression and alcohol , and bad decisions , he couldn’t get to that part of life . I want the extra money to go to his son so Jesse can finally do something for his son . I will he making arrangements in the coming days . And will update everyone as it goes and When I have the time to . He will be getting cremated , and we will have a service at a funeral home if the funds are there . And then a memorial for close friends and family at home after . Depending on what funds are accrued , we may just do something at home . I want to do right by Jesse , he deserves it more then he ever knew . So funds will be going to cremation , urns and keepsake urns for a few close family and friends , expenses for some family members to be able to get down here to Fl . We have a handful of family members that need to be here , and are having a rough time at the moment . The rest will go to medical examiners fees and then a fund for his son . Thankyou