ASKING THE UNIVERSE FOR HELP

Dear Family and Friends and the whole Universe,

I am stuck! I am so so stuck! My hip has progressively gotten worse over the past year, year and half. I can not stand or walk for longer than about 10 minutes. While last year, even 2 years while I was working, painting, I would simply work until my hip started hurting and then sit on a milk crate and paint low, cupboards, run base, etc.. But, I won't even be offered any of the work that I have been doing for the last 30 years, because I simply can not do the work any more.

I filed for Social Security Disability back in March, was denied, filed again and still waiting. I just keep hearing all the horror stories of long it takes, and I now believe them all.

I did apply for and now get food and medical. My sister has graciously kept my dog fed, and toilet paper and dish soap etc., my phone and internet, but even the little stuff is just soooo much. And my family has helped when they could and so very grateful!

I have contacted 11 agencies begging for help! 7 of them, are for people with children in the house. 3 were for people caring for elderly. And, the one that would help me with bills and rent, requires a full time job. And, and I'm not 65.

My landlord has been extremely patient and understanding. But, he is not rich. He is a retired delivery guy on a fixed income and still has to pay the bills for my house. My rent is only $500 a month, and as of Dec 1, I will owe him 6 months rent. And he will eventually be forced to, you know. I have lived in my house for 10 years and I love living here in my home! And eventually when I do get SSD, I can afford to live here.

With zero income, my truck is not legal and even going to a doctor is a whole another ball game for another day.

First and most important is my $1,108. electric bill, which is scheduled to get shut off this Friday. Nov. 22nd. And, gas bill, 175.00 is scheduled shut off 5 days after that. But, if I can't keep the electric on, the gas won't even matter, because the furnace needs electric too. I tried calling the electric company this morning, to see if they would take a lesser amount, but my phone is shut off, another 28 bucks. My internet is still on, but not for long. That's another 39 bucks.

I have been teaching my self how to make YouTube videos and would eventually hope to do that for a living and not even be on SSD, but even that is a year out before I can get monetized. I can make videos of the crazy stuff I make and teach people how I make it.

I just turn off the camera and sit down when I need to. Sit and edit when I need to.

That is my end game.

But, right now I am very seriously asking for help. My last ditch effort that I can even think of to NOT be homeless.

I have always believed in asking the universe for what ever I need. I used to ask for easy things like Harley tires, old lamps, junk wood, to make stuff with, and extra work when I needed it. I never thought to ask for cold hard cash until now.

For those of you who know and love me, it's been awhile since I've had a $3. tall Corona. If I see an extra three bucks, I'll know!

So, if you happen to have an extra 10 or 20 bucks or whatever, I will appreciate it with my whole heart more than you'd ever know! And more grateful than words can express!

All my love and gratitude,

Angelina Kettel