I swore I would never do this again but...

I've been trying to raise money by pushing my Patreon site and selling spots in an upcoming poetry workshop. I will continue to do those things. I really don't like simply asking for money. It hurts my self-esteem. I like working. I prefer working. I feel better when I get paid for my work.

That said, I'm still trying to get ahead of a potential crisis looming as I have no work at my principal source of income (training and development work for various companies, agencies, and non-profit) scheduled following the close of my last session on Wednesday, June 14.

I had been asked to hold dates and be prepared for a large amount of work in July as part of a larger assignment, which I did. That appears now to be on indefinite hold. I have a meeting tomorrow to start another assignment but no guarantees as to start date, number of sessions (I get paid by the session more or less), or number of hours that will be allowed for design/develoment work, and I suspect it won't actually cover the hourse needed at any rate.

I have every bill paid right now through the end of the month. I took that action as soon as I knew things were going to get tight. That said, it's a sobering look at my finances this morning -- and strangely enough a really bad dream (I never really dream) put me over the top. I woke up and started this.

I do not have more to say. I know I'm pathetic to grovel like this for money. At 63 you'd think I'd know better than to get this low. I'm just trying to forestall any more pain before it becomes dire.

Thank you. Whatever you can do.

T