This is hard to write, this has not been a ideal season to go through for our family. Over a year ago it was discovered that I had some things growing inside of me that shouldnt be. A number of test and specialist lead to a normal "routine" surgery removing most of my colon. Shortly after I arrived home from the hospital the complications started from tearing apart the abdominal incision to blood clots to having almost no red blood cells in my system (no idea how that happened) a hernia the size of football sticking out of my stomach. I was finally able to have the hole patched in december. I am finally at a point where i can somewhat return to work however not in my trained 15+year career I am unable to do what I love and what has provided for my family. The new life Im heading into has a lot of challanges but I am looking forward to see where I am being lead. The entire time this has been going on we have drained our savings, expecting a 6 week recovery is a lot different than a yr and counting recovery period. I am on the edge of loosing everything we have left. We have already lost our dreams and many future goals because this, I am just asking for help to hold onto what is left. I hate even being in a posotion to have to ask but Ive had a number of people comvince me to. If nothing else please pray for our family. God has gotten us this far. Im not sure what his plans are but I am still alive so he has something coming eventually or I wouldnt be here