Help to save my home and catch up with life.

This summer my father underwent invasive spinal surgery with a long recovery. We spent over a year through a lot of frustration because we had no idea what was wrong. Uncontrollable headaches, dizziness and stumbling, personality issues and other symptoms without any understanding after countless doctor's visits. Once he was able to be referred to a neurologist they sent him into surgery the very next week. Our worlds were once again turned upside down. I was losing who my father was and he was fading out before my eyes. I was ashamed of myself for feeling like somehow he had something to do with the way he was acting and to find out because of a fall, he scathed away from being paralyzed from the neck down and was living with that pain and frustration that entire time. I could only imagine what my mother was going through because she knows she can't help because she's physically disabled.

My mother suffers from whats called Kissing Spine Disease where at anytime she goes temporarily paralyzed from her hips down even while she's walking and currently needs two knee replacements. She spends her days sitting on a chair just waiting to be approved for her surgeries. I never saw my mother not moving around and walking faster than anyone alongside her. The light of my life started to diminish.  Now I walk in their home and I don't recognize my family. I would be selfish to not help my parents at their darkest of times. 

My father needed a germ free and spotless home and someone to be there during his recovery. It would have been easier if I was living with them but I just signed my first lease by myself in over a decade and had to have the dogs in a different home. We made it work and I held my head high and believed that this was a moment in time. Unfortunately,  the financial toll caught up to me. I fell behind this month with late payments and the bills keep piling. This, I know, is not anyone's issue especially during the holidays but I wouldn't be doing everything I could if I didn't ask for a helping hand. 

Someone close to me said there's never a dull moment in my family and as an outsider I would agree. On the inside, it feels completely different. Everyone's story is different and how life issues are dealt with.

I have never asked for help like this before because I can always figure it out but this time it's different.  I am a fighter and stronger than you can imagine but in this moment I feel so weak and vulnerable. No matter what, I would always choose my family over anything else. They're all I have. 

I am asking to raise $3000 to pay my back rent and my car payment and some food to get us through the holiday and jumpstart my ability to keep working and finding a way to move forward. 

You would be saving my life and I cannot express enough how thankful I am to anyone out there finding this. If anything keep us in your thoughts and your prayers. Thank you. A million times Thank you.

This will be paid forward in the future that is promised.