My boys funeral

Hi, my names Shannon and on the 1st of June 2023 my life changed with no explanation. I woke up and expected my life to be perfect and normal as every other day but I was so so wrong. my 8 month old son had passed away with no reason at all. All I’m getting told from the hospital etc is the reason is unknown and I still can’t put my boy to rest but I want to have everything ready to go. No mother should be having to plan there child’s funeral. The day before this he was the happiest boy as per usual. Smiling laughing causing a whole lot of chaos, and just being my beautiful little son, nothing makes sense to me even to now. If you know my boy personally you’ll know he was always happy. Hardly cried. Ate a whole lot of food, was always up my bum. Me and him had an unconditional bond and he loved everyone close to me. So for god to take him like that is so strange to me and it hurts soo much. I know baby funerals are free but the flowers and other necessities are not. And at my young age, being a single parent, and not being in work atm. Things are very hard for me and I just want the best for my son and his final day. People may think I’m selfish and stupid for posting this but when you least expect things asking for a bit of help is nothing to be embarrassed about. I’m just a mum who’s still trying the best for her kids when things right now are really really hard.