Anne-Marie Winter's Funeral Please Donate

My beautiful wife of 30 years, died by suicide almost 8 years ago.  We were together since Junior High.  She was from England and her family moved back when we were in grade 11.  When I graduated I moved to England to get married.  We had a family of 3 wonderful boys.  My 3 boys and I picked out a casket, planned the wake and chose the urn for her ashes.  The most difficult task I ever had to do.  Anne-Maries parents blamed me for her death.  To prevent a scene I chose not to attend the funeral.  A fact that still pains me to this day.  At that time I took out a loan to pay the $17,500 for the funeral.  8 years on and I am still struggling to pay off the funeral expenses.  I took out all of my retirement savings to pay for the kids to go to school and still paying the funeral costs is a challenge.  This is the really short version of my story.   I can add much more sad, painful detail if it helps.  I struggle with asking for help but at this stage I am left with this forum.  If you are able donate $5, and please send this to as many people that you know.