Any amount will help . Im gonna make this a short story because most of you already know, if you dont know please check my tiktok profile where you found this video from. Ive been raised in a house with 3 older brothers an my mom, i was sa'd starting from when i was 4 to about 11 years old. i didnt think anything of it i thought it was normal, my mom never reported it cause she said it was "ok for siblings to experiment." I then got sa'd many times by my oldest brother, when we got into a heated argument he'd purposely get behind me and try pulling down my pants (im gonna get very descriptive so be aware) he then started putting me in a chokehold, this would happen in most of our fights but it wasnt a everyday thing, it happened from when i was living with my dad in new york so, 12 to 14 yrs old i was. I then moved to north carolina after my mom and 2 other brothers did, one is in the army and one is now living wirh his gf and her family, in the 3-4 years ive lived with them from 14 to 17, my "youngest" oldest brother did something to me ill never forget, my heart was filled with anger disgust and i had so many trust issues. he was the only brother i cared for at the time cause as we got older we got close and the first thing i did when i moved to this state was ran to hug him and cried in his arms.. it hurts me to even know he would do something to me and it actually happening. 2 months later i couldnt take any of the pain i tried oding and slitting my body open. my mom came home from her job found me, yelled and cussed me out while everything tk me was faint and i dont remember much besides arriving at the hospital, i got sent to a mental hospital for a little over a month, told them what my brother had done and they told the cops. A month later when i was out the first day i found out my brother was staying at my neighbors which was my stepdads boss at the time, not sure the exact everything but my mom told me cops wanted him 300+ feet away from me for 30 days. (not sure if ill ever believe that cause i had no police report papers or anything even tho it was done in the mental hospital that i told everything to.) So he was only there for 2 weeks after i got out. My mom counted the other 2 weeks i was in the hospital. She then made me apologize to my brother and said its okay for him to experiment on me. Til this day and from the day i was born my mom has been nothing but abusive, my father used to be extremely abusive but hes still living in new york so i dont see him but he will send me manipulating and threatening text every so often. Some of my moms boyfriends abaolutely abused the shit out of me and her at the time. My stepdad now is fine but he just sides with my mom, she has this manipulation tatic she uses with everybody so i guess he got sucked in too. Long story short im trying to raise money to move out and find a roomate or somewhere to stay. im 18 and just need to go.