Help pay for essential dental treatment

Hi, my name is Annalee, l’m really not good at asking for help, but l have tried everything l could to raise the money myself to finish my implant treatment. As a result of chemotherapy treatment for breast cancer a few years ago, my bones and teeth have not been the same and l have had to remove 3 teeth at the side of my mouth. I sold my car last year August 2023 to start treatment and l managed to scrape by paying instalments whilst being a level 4 counselling student, which has been really hard, there are so many things to pay for in my course such as personal therapy and supervision which are essential requirements of the course. I managed to get by on a small bursary from the college, but the problems started when that bursary stopped for the summer holidays. I found l could not save the instalments for my treatment. It was literally eat and scrape by with my course, or starve and pay to finish my treatment, l could no longer save any money. If l knew the impact undertaking the treatment would’ve had on my mental health and well-being, l would never have done it. I regret it with every fibre of my being, even though the work done so far was essential. Better to have just let my natural teeth get worse, least they would’ve still been in my mouth, l feel so self conscious, but the dentist said the teeth had to come out and implants was the best option for normality. Now l feel trapped between a rock and a hard place. Life is becoming a chore. I don’t really have friends to ask and I am on my own, at times my loneliness becomes all too apparent and have nobody to turn to. I feel profoundly unhappy. I have fought long and hard by myself and the spirit is beginning to drain from me. I am really worried now because the Orthodontist has warned me that leaving my mouth with such a big gap is going to cause problems if l leave it any longer. I chew on the right side of my mouth, eventually this is going to cause wear and tear and that will bring another set of nightmares. October of this year was when things should’ve been done and dusted. The whole thing feels like a never ending nightmare l can’t wake up from. It is affecting me psychologically and starting to cause problems with my speech, which is a big problem because counselling is a talking therapy. The temporary bridge is becoming uncomfortable. I no longer smile, or laugh anymore because l am so self-conscious. I am down all the time and the stress is affecting me badly and l cry, a lot. I keep my problems separate when l see clients because it’s not about me when l’m in a session with them and knowing l am helping brings me a temporary lightness of heart, but as soon as l finish their sessions, the worry sets in again, and l am weary. I was a victim of fraud because l tried to take out an instant loan to pay the rest of the balance. My desperation overrode my common sense and l stupidly gave them part of my rent money. Luckily the bank refunded this back. I have been turned down for dental finance so now my credit score is in the toilet. Somebody recommended GoFundMe, and l wasn’t going to do it. This is really hard for me because l don’t know who l can turn to, but the fact that l’m doing it indicates just how bad things are for me right now. It is getting so bad that l am considering leaving my counselling course a few months shy of graduating because it is getting harder to keep it together. My strength is slipping away due to the worry. I’m kind of scared asking, l am aware life is hard for everyone. That is why l thought long and hard before doing this. I pray everyday for a miracle to help me. This is my last hope. If anyone can find it in their heart to help me, l would be profoundly grateful for giving me the hope that l can finally move past this nightmare, go forward and give my studies the attention it deserves and to be able to celebrate graduating with no restraints and enjoy a fulfilling career helping others as a therapist. Thank for taking the time to read my story. God bless you.