I need more time ❤️‍

As some of you know, my son, Jordan, passed away August 1st this year. I'm having a really hard time with it and getting back to life.

I started back to work and it's not going very well. I'm a server and it's hard to work distracted. There is so much going on in my mind, I can't stop thinking about him. We have questions about his death that require legal action and research that weighs heavy on my mind, and needs hours of attention that working takes from and needs money to achieve.

I'm trying to move to get out of this house Jordan died in, and I have found one. So, I'd like to be able to insure that my new place will be secure. I just want to be able to work and grieve and not have to worry about living expenses.

Devon is having a hard time also, I feel like I need to be there for him now more than ever. He hasn't started school back yet and I hardly have enough energy after having to work a full time schedule to remember to do anything outside of that. I don't want Devon falling further behind and I want to be able to be active in helping him through this.

My goal is $20,000 because hopefully that will cover at least 4 months of bills and rent. To get us passed the holiday season. The season has begun and Halloween was so tough, being that it was Jordan's favorite holiday. Being around families and stuff this holiday season will be torturous.

I've never asked for help from anyone in Jordan's 19 years, except one short period, but I need it now. I've always been the strong one and took care of everything on my own, but now I need my people. Those who love and care about Devon and I to help us in this unimaginable time.

I'm not looking for hand outs, I'm not going to stop working, I just need a little boost so that money isn't my first priority.

Jordan died because it was crunch week, rent week. I needed every hour I could get. He didn't seem as bad as he was the other times. I didn't make him a priority to take him to the hospital and take time off to be with him, like I did the first two times. I didn't know he would die from what was ailing him, it was so fast...so fast.

His death has certainly had changed my way of thinking about money, but society hasn't, the government hasn't, landlords haven't. The bills never stop coming, and rent is necessary.

And as much as I regret to say it, life goes on.

I'm destroyed by my son's death, I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy. I now have to live for more years without him than I did with him and that tears my world apart.

I'm living moment by moment right now and every day I have to choose to get up and keep going. But, some days I just can't do it, and on those days, I lose income. It sucks so bad that I have to worry about that while grieving my son.

So I'm reaching out for some type of relief from the financial strain so I can work on my emotional pain.

Thank you so much for your consideration and support ♥️♥️