Medical Bills

I hurt myself at work over a year ago. Since then, my wife has had to shoulder almost everything. We have filed a chapter 7, workers compensation won t pay my claim due to lack of medical evidence that it actually happend on the job... sucks when you work alone.. We will lose our truck in the bankruptsy. The house is still a big maybe. We are hoping to be able to pay my out of pocket deductible so we don't start out not being able to pay my hospital bills. And possibly make a down payment on a new vehicle so we can get a little better interest rate. Thank you in advance to anyone who has been, and is still right here to help us, it's been a rough one. I never thought it would take so long to get my surgery done. Conservative treatment is fine when your not in a hurry, the surgery is done now and I've gotta be honest, it hurts! More so than before the surgery sometimes. It started out where I felt as if I had all my strength back, my grip was 10x stronger when they checked it at the hospital. Now I am feeling the weakness come back into my arms, and shoulders, and have a near constant deep ache right below my neck in my upper back. I've really been trying to keep positive, but it's getting tough. I want to be 20 yrs younger so I can show my wife how tough I used to be. Lately all i feel is worthless, it doesn't help that I haven't been able to work since March of '16. A year doesn't seem like that long of a time when your actually living it. When your not it's an eternity. Asking for help is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I'd do the surgery another 10 times if I didn't have to ask. But it's not just about me. I have a wife, and daughter to think about, as well as 3 furry babies. This has been by far the hardest year in as long as I can remember. The mental stress is pretty overwhelming, not being able to work, or contribute is horrible. All I can do is stand back and watch. When I was younger I'd just pull up my sleeves and get to work. I did all this working for a man who never gave a shit about me. I sure thought he did, I thought we were friends, but in the end he walked away and took everything. I'll bet he doesn't even lose sleep over it. He has a small company which means he has private workers compensation insurance. His insurance company was the one who actually did the investigation, and determined i wasn't eligible. Funny thing is that I can't find a lawyer to even take the case, I don't know why he gets to win, i get that life isn't fair, but I should have been taken care of. I was tossed in the gutter with a leave of absence. Stiffed on a Christmas bonus, and never even got my sick, or vacation pay. He said I hadn't earned it yet... the other day I saw him driving down the road in a brand new work truck, with a brand new service bed in the back and I've gotta be honest, I was pissed! He had just bought a new truck for himself before he got rid of me, he doesn't have the money to take care of the only guy that took care of him for the last 10 years, but he can drop another 70000 on a new truck. Sorry, I'm slightly disgruntled. He said " why would I screw myself" when I asked why he lied about my injury. I'm so sick of getting screwed out of money that I earned, and if you don't have enough to pay a lawyer up front, they won't waste the time on your case.  A person can only take so much loss. I know in time we will get through this, I just hope it's sooner than later. I think I'm done complaining for at least a day or so. Thank you to all the people who have stayed with me, and cared about me through this, it means alot.