Please help our mom, we can’t lose her

Update: My name is Jeni, my son started this go fund me back in June when I was first diagnosed with congestive heart failure with reduced ejection fraction. The funds raised will be used towards a heart transplant. It costs 1.3 million and I need to raise up to 1/3 of that amount to cover what insurance won’t. Since than unfortunately my health has continued to deteriorate. I have been hospitalized several times since then due complications. I'm currently hospitalized, as I was admitted in critical condition Sunday due to fatally low potassium. I am also now in kidney failure. My condition has progressed to end stage Acute on Chronic systolic and diastolic Congestive Heart Failure. My ejection fraction has dropped from 25% in June to 18% currently. I have been working with a heart transplant surgeon at UNMC in Omaha, Nebraska. He has been doing all the preparations for me to get on transplant list. Unfortunately, I was recently informed that I will not be a candidate for heart transplant. Thus being due to my inability to show that I can cover 1/3 of the procedure and cost of anti-rejection meds. The heart transplant costs around 1.6 million dollars!!! I asked them "who can afford that? There's no way! I'm a single mom who has/is raising 5 kids. 3 of which have a special needs. That being said, I never had much to set a side in savings. As I looked more into this I began to realize that it would appear only people with money, and I mean a lot of money are able to be getting organ transplants. I’m not sure how anyone can afford to do this ‍I know that I definitely can NOT! It seems rather unfair that you can only be provided life saving treatment if you’re wealthy. However, I do understand that this the reality of life. I want so desperately to have as much time as possible with my kids and grandkids. My life has been far from easy but I refuse to give up. I overcame physical and sexual abuse as a child, on going domestic abuse as an adult as well as addiction, mental health and being homeless with 5 kids as minimum wage couldn’t cover the bills. I want my kids to see me keep fighting. I want this so that they never question their worth to me. So they will not only they are worth it, but they will know; with the Lord, they as well have the strength to overcome any obstacle they are faced with. I know it’s cliche but I want so terribly to be able to help my girls get ready for prom, see them graduate and stand with them on their wedding day. I want to be present for my all my son’s future accomplishments and to watch them grow as husbands and fathers. I know so many other people struggle and face heartbreaking situations daily. Therefore, I hate to even be asking for help. If its not meant to be for me to get the heart and kidney transplant i know that I must accept that and that I must never loose faith in God’s plan . In the event that situation would arise, it leads to a whole separate financial crisis. That being , that I can’t bear the thought of leaving my 23 yr old son with the burden of being responsible for my funeral/burial costs.He is already working tirelessly to help provide and he should not have to be faced with that during a time of such grieving. Had I known better or g had more guidance I surely I would’ve planned for something like this. I would have had life insurance in lite of this very situation arising. However, I didn’t. Unfortunately, when your living day to day often times even hour by hour you have to prioritize the barest necessities. In the moment life insurance wasn’t one of them. A home and food for my kids was. I continually strive to each day become a better version of myself. As I wanted to lead by example showing my kids that hard work, dedication and resilience pay off. I recently completed the education and training to obtain my state registration as a Behavioral Therapist. This was always my passion, as my oldest child has autism and schizophrenia.I have spent all of his life fighting and advocating for him tirelessly, only for the system to fail him time and time again. He now is in a state prison sentenced to 20 years. Thus being another reason I can’t leave this earth just yet. I can’t leave him behind without someone to be his voice and to advocate for him and his needs. I want so desperately to be able to hug him even if it’s just one last time. I was so proud to have completed my RBT. Not only to be doing something I truly found so rewarding, but as well it would afford me the ability of becoming financially stable. As it would happen life had other plans. It was shortly after I began working as a Behavioral Therapist that i was diagnosed with my heart failure. It was only a short time before I was no longer able to continue working. I felt so absolutely defeated. I worked and sacrificed so much for this to be the outcome, I just couldn’t understand why?! I have never been one to ask for help or engage in a pity party, as I understand my actions have consequences and for those i must be accountable. I have always strived to be a good person, to help others out when ever possible and to do it without conditions or judgement. I aimed to raise my kids to do the same. I don’t know what path lies ahead for me/my family nor do I know what the Lord has planned. I do know that whatever it is, he will be by our side the whole way. I know that when we don’t have the strength within us to keep going, it is then that he will carry. I have faith in that because I with him all things are possible! I know that because we are a faith driven family with the Lord on our side together we will persevere! If you decide to donate wonderful I couldn’t be more blessed. Either way if you would take a minute to send up a prayer for myself and my family to ask God that in our time of darkness and confusion might he be the light to lead the way. I truly thank everyone who has taken the time to learn a little about our story! May God bless all of you

                 Sincerely,

              Jennifer Brown