Mental Health Rehabilitation
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On February 2nd of 2018, I tried to take my own life. I had just dropped my then five year old daughter off at school and had forgotten my work phone back at the house and I had a lot of meetings/appointments scheduled for the day so I had to go home to grab the phone. While at home that morning is when I attempted to take my life and I just remember sort of “coming to” on my bathroom floor and had an overwhelming thought of my daughter seeing me wheeled out of our house dead and strapped to a gurney and that thought of my daughter saved my life. This wasn’t the first time I’ve tried and unfortunately hasn’t been the last bout of dealing with suicidal actions. This was just the most significant, I was dead on my bathroom floor, brought back to life by the thought of an angel on this earth. When I came back around that morning is when I knew I needed help.
Since that morning, I have tried everything to heal, from the smallest, like learning the rubick’s cube, to a few of the biggest ways like starting a Facebook peer counseling group called Ashes in the Fall with currently over 270 members, and also going back to college to attain my hopefully PhD in Counseling Psychology. So far I have maintained a 4.0 gpa and like I said, the eventual goal is my PhD. I started going to counseling shortly after my attempt and I thought I had ADHD and was a little depressed and this was far from the case. Through psych testing I learned that I am one half of a half percent from the top of the depression spectrum with Major Depressive Disorder. Out of roughly 350 million people worldwide with diagnosed cases of depression, I learned that mine was worse than 342 million of those cases, far from a little depressed as I thought. I don’t even have ADHD like I was verbally diagnosed with back during my bachelors degree. What I do also have, which was new to me, is Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is also in the top ten percent of the spectrum of diagnosed cases as well. I also have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and a personality disorder like Bipolar.
Having learned all of this and trying everything in my power to heal has at least shown me what I am up against. Life is a daily struggle and I have had a few relapses, but the relapse I’m currently in is different and it’s going to kill me if I don’t seek more intense professional help. I’m asking for donations to be able to go to a rehabilitation center and have the much needed time off of work so I can try to learn the necessary coping skills needed to heal better than I have ever before and hopefully find some peace. I’m dedicating the rest of my life to helping others and bringing awareness to mental health issues and at this time I could also use the help. If you cannot donate you can still help by sharing this fundraiser on your social media platforms. Please help me find peace and pure happiness. Much Love to you All ❤️.
Since that morning, I have tried everything to heal, from the smallest, like learning the rubick’s cube, to a few of the biggest ways like starting a Facebook peer counseling group called Ashes in the Fall with currently over 270 members, and also going back to college to attain my hopefully PhD in Counseling Psychology. So far I have maintained a 4.0 gpa and like I said, the eventual goal is my PhD. I started going to counseling shortly after my attempt and I thought I had ADHD and was a little depressed and this was far from the case. Through psych testing I learned that I am one half of a half percent from the top of the depression spectrum with Major Depressive Disorder. Out of roughly 350 million people worldwide with diagnosed cases of depression, I learned that mine was worse than 342 million of those cases, far from a little depressed as I thought. I don’t even have ADHD like I was verbally diagnosed with back during my bachelors degree. What I do also have, which was new to me, is Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is also in the top ten percent of the spectrum of diagnosed cases as well. I also have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and a personality disorder like Bipolar.
Having learned all of this and trying everything in my power to heal has at least shown me what I am up against. Life is a daily struggle and I have had a few relapses, but the relapse I’m currently in is different and it’s going to kill me if I don’t seek more intense professional help. I’m asking for donations to be able to go to a rehabilitation center and have the much needed time off of work so I can try to learn the necessary coping skills needed to heal better than I have ever before and hopefully find some peace. I’m dedicating the rest of my life to helping others and bringing awareness to mental health issues and at this time I could also use the help. If you cannot donate you can still help by sharing this fundraiser on your social media platforms. Please help me find peace and pure happiness. Much Love to you All ❤️.
Organizer
Adam Clampitt
Organizer
Lansing, KS