Everything that makes you feel like a human, a woman cancer takes it. Your pride, dignity, confidence, hair, BOOBS yup gonna take it all. The physical effects are awful the psychological I can't even begin to describe. My journey has just started and already I feel like a failure. I crumble daily then pick myself up and crumble again. I have never had anything make me feel so weak and defeated. I'm going to fight with everything I have got every weapon in my arsenal but it's exhausting and I have come to find expensive and overwhelming. I never ask for help. I have always felt that if I asked for help it means that I have failed myself. The people who love me are telling that is not true and that this is what I need to do so here I am asking anyone who can to help me fight this battle. I am a mother a sister an aunt a daughter a grandmother and someone's best friend and the woman someone loves and I need help!! I never realized all that this would cost....medical bills, gas, parking and silly as it may sound to some .... A wig.... Yup I need hair!! Not to mention the fact that you still have to live day to day, pay your bills and eat and well just survive. So even though I hate asking for help here I am asking anyone and everyone for any little bit they can share. Believe me it will not go unappreciated and hopefully someday I can pay it forward. Thanks for reading at the very least and please if you pray to whoever it is you say your prayers say one for me and the people that I love!!