CJ's return to family and home.
Donation protected
I am CJ Fandel. Forty one years ago I was happy to live in Clear Lake, Iowa, near to where I was born in to this world and would grow up as a happy child. One sunny afternoon, when I was twenty five years old, I had a chance to go to Los Angeles to see my dear Grandmother, and other family, who had moved there a few years before. I took that opportunity, and I was able to spend fifteen years of quality time with my dear Grandma, and other relatives, until my grandma passed.
I've now been living in California for forty one wonderful years. I made this my home because, not long after arriving in Los Angeles, I met the Love of my life, my wife to be, Bunny. Bunny had a beautiful little two year old daughter. We had the best times, ever. It seemed those good times would never end, and that our Love would endure, and that we would actually grow old together.
This was not to be, as we had hoped and dreamed. Bunny died of a heart attack in the morning hours of june 26, 2016, a little more than a week ago. I was with her, I gave her CPR and when the EMT's arrived to continue CPR, I held her hands, I told her that I Love her, and I lay with her on the floor for four hours after she was declared dead. I held her in my arms, caressed her hair, kissed her cheecks, and asked her to please wake me from my nightmare. Wake me from this nightmare, Bunny! Please!!
But, she's gone. I thought that Bunny had life insurance, but, she didn't. We didn't have the funds in our budget to even cremate my Buuny. I had to borrow money from family to cremate my own wife!
We were happy just to live a simple life together. We were happy together. Our daughter, my step daughter, lives in Los Angeles. Even though we are close, we might as well be a world apart at this time. She's the mother of a six week old baby girl, Bunny's only grand child, a sweet baby we saw only twice before Bunny passed. My direct family is almost entirely living in the midwest, mostly in Iowa and Minnesota.
As I lay on the floor holding Bunny in my arms, before she was forever taken away from me, I realized that, although we have many dear friends here, I actually am alone, if I'm not with my direct family.
So it's come to this. I can't continue to live in the house we've been renting. I must move. I don't want to be alone, the most terrible feeling in life, and my family and friends think it would be in my best interest for me to live near to my family. When I get out of this rough patch I'm trapped in, I will be OK.
I'm humbly asking for funds to enable me to at the very least, be able to move back to Iowa from my once happy home here in California.
I've calculated that all the costs of my move will amount to $3,500.00. These include a truck for moving and towing my one car, the movers needed, and other associated costs of moving, as well as unforseen expenses that may accrue that I'm not taking in to account for.
The sooner the funds are gifted, the better. I'm desperately trying to downsize for the move. I intend to donate almost everything in the house that I can. I would like to move with as little as possible, but in fact, there are things I'll need to move in order to avoid having to replace them at a high cost when I do return home in Iowa or Minnesota. I've discontinued all but the neccessary services to the house while I remain here.
I consider myself to be in need of these funds now. I hope that my prayers are answered and that I will once again be with my only remaining blood family, where I was born and raised and lived for the first twenty five happy years of my life.
Once I am through this deep dark nightmare, I will be in the light again, and I will be OK. I hope to share my energies, my gifts, and my Love, with every one I am blessed to meet and to know. I could never really express my gratitude as richly as I would hope to, for funding me so that I can return home, but I have every intention to, and vow to be a better man, a better person, for Bunny and for Kris, and our grand daughter Madison, and for every person I meet, and to fulfill my real purpose here on Earth. I am sincerely and eternally grateful, and I wish each of you a life filled with good health, happiness, and never ending Love. My thanks to you.
I've now been living in California for forty one wonderful years. I made this my home because, not long after arriving in Los Angeles, I met the Love of my life, my wife to be, Bunny. Bunny had a beautiful little two year old daughter. We had the best times, ever. It seemed those good times would never end, and that our Love would endure, and that we would actually grow old together.
This was not to be, as we had hoped and dreamed. Bunny died of a heart attack in the morning hours of june 26, 2016, a little more than a week ago. I was with her, I gave her CPR and when the EMT's arrived to continue CPR, I held her hands, I told her that I Love her, and I lay with her on the floor for four hours after she was declared dead. I held her in my arms, caressed her hair, kissed her cheecks, and asked her to please wake me from my nightmare. Wake me from this nightmare, Bunny! Please!!
But, she's gone. I thought that Bunny had life insurance, but, she didn't. We didn't have the funds in our budget to even cremate my Buuny. I had to borrow money from family to cremate my own wife!
We were happy just to live a simple life together. We were happy together. Our daughter, my step daughter, lives in Los Angeles. Even though we are close, we might as well be a world apart at this time. She's the mother of a six week old baby girl, Bunny's only grand child, a sweet baby we saw only twice before Bunny passed. My direct family is almost entirely living in the midwest, mostly in Iowa and Minnesota.
As I lay on the floor holding Bunny in my arms, before she was forever taken away from me, I realized that, although we have many dear friends here, I actually am alone, if I'm not with my direct family.
So it's come to this. I can't continue to live in the house we've been renting. I must move. I don't want to be alone, the most terrible feeling in life, and my family and friends think it would be in my best interest for me to live near to my family. When I get out of this rough patch I'm trapped in, I will be OK.
I'm humbly asking for funds to enable me to at the very least, be able to move back to Iowa from my once happy home here in California.
I've calculated that all the costs of my move will amount to $3,500.00. These include a truck for moving and towing my one car, the movers needed, and other associated costs of moving, as well as unforseen expenses that may accrue that I'm not taking in to account for.
The sooner the funds are gifted, the better. I'm desperately trying to downsize for the move. I intend to donate almost everything in the house that I can. I would like to move with as little as possible, but in fact, there are things I'll need to move in order to avoid having to replace them at a high cost when I do return home in Iowa or Minnesota. I've discontinued all but the neccessary services to the house while I remain here.
I consider myself to be in need of these funds now. I hope that my prayers are answered and that I will once again be with my only remaining blood family, where I was born and raised and lived for the first twenty five happy years of my life.
Once I am through this deep dark nightmare, I will be in the light again, and I will be OK. I hope to share my energies, my gifts, and my Love, with every one I am blessed to meet and to know. I could never really express my gratitude as richly as I would hope to, for funding me so that I can return home, but I have every intention to, and vow to be a better man, a better person, for Bunny and for Kris, and our grand daughter Madison, and for every person I meet, and to fulfill my real purpose here on Earth. I am sincerely and eternally grateful, and I wish each of you a life filled with good health, happiness, and never ending Love. My thanks to you.
Organizer
Cj Fandel
Organizer
Pioneer, CA