Hi, I am trying to raise funds for myself. I need money to pay my monthly bills and to help me with housing, as I am homeless. Some background: As of June of 2020 I escaped from my now ex husband who was my abuser and sexual assaulter, we are working on getting a divorce and I do have an attorney. Everyday I stayed with him, I was continuously scared for my life. His daily outbursts greatly affected my mental health. His abusive nature continues to affect me with flashbacks that cause me great distress almost daily. I am disabled and before going into our marriage he was aware of this but would use my disability against me even when I did work, he was telling me continuously that I contributed nothing to the household and contributed nothing to our marriage. Despite this, I did our yearly taxes, check balancing and various other things that he did not know how to do. He'd take his anger and stress out on me by sexual assaulting me and I was always so scared that the abuse would get even more severe with time. I tried stopping him on my own countless times only to be told I either deserved it or that it didnt count as abuse. I tried many times to talk him down from his outburts and was met with silence only later to be met with sexual assaults. I'm scared of him; This isn't the first time I've tried to escape him but it will be the last because no matter what I can't risk going back to him. During our marriage I eventually proposed the idea of a divorce and he confessed to cheating on me with another woman and that's when the abuse became worse. Everytime I caught him on porn websites chatting with other women he'd become even more verbally abusive. He started getting drunk and high and when this started he'd threaten to get even more physical with me and this turned into a day to day occurance. For my own safety I am not taking legal action and am only trying to secure some stability with my housing and bills.
I currently have services with DMH who have not helped me find housing. Left to my own devices I was hospitalized in September of 2020 only to later be placed in a Respite. As of 01.06.2021 DMH is still refusing to see my best interest and help me find a place and tomorrow, January 7th 2021 I will be kicked out of the respite. My boyfriend and I have been calling Domestic Violence shelters all around Massachusetts looking for a bed but nothing has shown any hope. I have nowhere to go and I am terried of being on the street again.
I am really at my wits end with all of this. My only option at this point is to hospitalize myself again which will take a toll on my mental health. I've been abused multiple times in Psychiatric hospitals over the years. This cycle won't stop and I won't be safe unless I find a way to support myself and find some stability and security, this is not my first gofundme. My last gofundme fell through but I am really hoping this one works out. If you can donate please donate and know I am unbelievably thankful for your support. Please pass this around aka share this if you have the means to do so. Thank you for reading, god bless.