A new baby and kidney failure

I am Angie, and Eric is my husband and James is my son. For 10 of James's 20 days of life his father was in the hospital due to kidney failure. When he came in his kidneys were working at 5% and he was just days away from his body shutting down. Those 10 days were awful with a newborn and a sick husband. I was depressed and suicidal. I was a new mom without my husband and I felt the stress closing in on me. I still do. 

My husband does dialysis 3x a week 4 hours every day he does it so 12 hours of dialysis a week. We are working towards in home dialysis, but we are going to end up needing a transplant. He was a young (currently 22) healthy man who all of a sudden went into stage 5 kidney failure. Some days I am home alone with our 4 month old baby for 15 hours by myself with no help because he is trying to catch up financially working and then going straight to dialysis. 

I worry about my baby, my husband, and forget about my own self. I can't personally handle the stress of finances for his past hospital stay, his current dialysis treatments and his future surgeries, not to mention his prescriptions all while with an infant. 2020 has been a very rough year and I just need a break from some worries. I know no one can fix his health struggles, but helping financial struggles would be one chip off my shoulders if we can get some help.

Thank you for reading our story and contributing either by donation or sharing. If you are a mother, I hope that you never have to go through having a spouse that is absent due to health problems. If you are a husband, I hope you are healthy enough to provide for your family that needs you. The next several years will be rough until he gets the kidney that he needs. Until then we need help as we raise our family.