It is with a humble heart that I have started this page. My name is Robert Greer and I'm a retired law enforcement officer suffering from PTSD. I had 16.5 years of service at the time I was terminated for policy violations and I was advised to file for disability through the Louisiana Sheriff's Pension and Relief Fund (our retirement system). PTSD is not a job related condition in law enforcement. I have been receiving 75% disability payments since April of 2018 of $2,028.22 monthly. This is supposed to be for a family of 5, with a limitation on extra income of $500 a month. If I earn more than that, I lose my pension forever. I don't have insurance. My wife, children and I have been renting space from my in-laws. However my condition has been so problematic I can no longer live there. My wife and I have reached this agreement together, however it has come after they have endured much mental abuse this condition can create. I can no longer hurt myself and my family this way. I need help. My wife is currently unable to work due to COVID-19 affecting her field. In addition, I feel she may be suffering from compassionate fatigue/vicarious trauma, which is having a negative effect on her overall health. I can't allow this to happen anymore. I have been in counseling for over 6 years, been on antidepressants for over a decade, I have been seeing a psychologist for some years, I refuse to try to return to a career I pledged my life to out of fear it will become worse. I have attempted unsuccessfully to get a service dog. I stay away from situations that are upsetting, among many other things to help with this problem. I need more help than I can afford. I have learned that there is nothing out there for first responders like there is for veterans. I am starting EMDR sessions next week with my counselor, but it's gonna cost. I have found a very promising opportunity in California as well. It's offered by the First Responder Support Network https://www.frsn.org. They offer an intensive 7 day retreat focusing on various forms of PTSD therapy/treatment/philosophies from professionals who are specialized in first responder trauma. I have completed the phone intake interview, am on a 5-8 month waiting list with an option to attend sooner if someone cancels. The cost of the week is $4,600 excluding transportation. I have completed a financial need scholarship and based on our current income, I'm sure I will receive some assistance. I have been searching for 2 years and this is the only thing i have found. I have Crohn's disease, have broken my back 3 times, and have arthritis. My medical bills are pretty high, even though a lot is covered free of charge through various programs. All of this information is heavily documented and proof of any of this can be provided if necessary. Anything extra would go towards possibly improving our living situation. I have land by my family, but it currently is inaccessible and undeveloped. It really wouldn't take a lot to put a road in and get a mobile home on it, but that's completely out of reach right now. PTSD has taken most everything from me. I have lost my career, my house, most things I had worked for, a lot of friends, and any prestige and admiration anyone had ever held for me. My Bachelor's degree is worthless. It will not take anything else. For those wondering, I spent five years investigating juvenile sex crimes, child pornography, internet sexual predators, worked cases involving abused and neglected children, was involved in cases involving the death of infants/toddlers, including one of a dear friend and coworker. I have been involved in 2 fatal shootings in which men who were sick and needed help, just like I do right now, died. These things, among many others, weigh heavy on my heart and I can't seem to unload this burden. Anything you could do would be very much appreciated. For those who can tolerate it, watch an Amazon documentary called 'Code 9: Officer Needs Assistance'. Not easy to watch.