Help me leave a bad home

Hi everyone, I'm Jazmine, but most of you know me as Cyber or Jazz. I'm entirely new to the whole GoFundMe thing, and I was extremely hesitant on making one for years out of fear and feeling bad. But I really need help, and I'm not one to beg for money unless I desperately need it.  I've lived in a bad household for years. It's gotten bad to the point of physical abuse. My mother's fiance has lived with us for nearly 7 years, and I still question how I've managed to put up with the abuse for this long. I was caught up in my fear to think about what was best for me. Outcomes of being caught and being abused more filled my head with thinking I would never be able to leave and seek help. I've been afraid up until now. Now that I'm 18, I feel as though they can't do anything to me. Though, that doesn't stop the constant berating they give me here at home. I'm often called too stupid to get an education, told that I will never make it in a decent enough job, called useless, etc. It messes with my self-esteem and severely hurts me when I'm told this by people who are supposed to care and love me. I don't feel love in this house, and it hurts me more than anything. I realized that I can't keep living here if I want to get an education, a job, and the ability to finally be an adult. Living in this household has restricted my ability to make social interactions outside of the internet. I was in college for a short period of time before leaving due to personal reasons. My mom would stick around the college campus to check on me. Even in college I felt limitless to what I could do. I was afraid to make friends and get too close out of fear of my own mother trying to control who I hang out with. I've rejected so many opportunities to make friends and hang out with them. All because I couldn't stop being scared. I regret not being able to get out of shell during that time. My friends even desperately tried to get me to see the campus doctor, but I was too afraid of my own mom to see one. I haven't seen a doctor since I was 14, so living here has also put my health in a lot of risk. Bleeding, bruising, cuts, minor seizures, and even fainting have occurred throughout those 4 years without seeing a doctor. Sometimes these kind of conditions put me at risk of not being able to finish commissions. My body feels constantly drained and unable to do simple task at times. There are days where I'm unable to even stand because of the amount of pain I go through. I'm not allowed to take medicine here at home because my mom doesn't believe that they're there to help you. So I have to bear with the pain, no matter how much it hurts. My mom's fiance hasn't been the nicest to me in years. He has physically and verbally abused me; and still continues to do so. He would drag me by the hair and leave me outside in the cold. I have no privacy in my own home. He barges in my room, since there's no lock, without warning. He lectures me about locking doors in the house, and it leaves me with no privacy whatsoever. Years ago, when I was 13, he attempted to push himself onto me. He barged into my room and chased me out until he pinned me to the floor.. I was beyond terrified. I managed to escape back into my room, but it still scares me to this day. I'm scared. It terrifies me to have to live with someone who has repeatedly hurt me. My mother is aware of everything, yet still continues to force me to live here. I rarely eat because I'm afraid to see him. My body isn't accustomed to eating anymore. It makes me beyond weak, and I hate not being able to carry certain things at times. I've been forced into isolation for too long, and I can't keep living here. He cuts off my internet at a certain time at night, keeping me from doing commissions and talking with friends. He's never liked it when I've made friends, and it's not unusual for him to cut it off. But considering now that I have a job in art, it's hard for me to contact my commissioners when I'm being constantly restricted. I want to leave so bad. I can't keep living here if I want to be happy and independent. It's hard to do so if I'm constantly being tugged on a leash. I'm asking for money to help me move out. To help me get an apartment in California, to be closer to family. And to help me with necessary things that will help me (groceries, bills, first few months of living, etc). I can wait until I reach the goal, so please don't rush to donate. Even if you're unable to, I appreciate everything you do to support me. It means the world to me, so thank you. You can reach me on my Twitter and in my Discord server. I won't flood my Twitter with updates on my homelife, but I will mention it in my server (that is if you want to keep up to date what happens to me). If you have any questions in regards to any of this, please don't hesitate to reach out to me. I will be more than open to discuss concerns, questions, etc. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.