Fibromyalgia and mental health

Long story short... Mental health sucks and my family and I need help getting out of the city. Either help to purchase a manufactured home or someone to rent one to us. 

I have not been the same person since my Grandmother passed away. It didn’t all go downhill right away. I have always tried my whole life to be the best I could. I was always concerned with my job, making enough money, raising my kids, and finding a boyfriend (thinking this was the key to happiness). I never actually took time for myself that didn’t involve one of those things.

Fast forward a few years later. I now really have no idea where the last 4 years went.  Since my Grandma has been gone, I have been through some things I wish
I hadn’t. I have been in an abusive relationship, have developed
fibromyalgia, anxiety, depression, just to name a few. I have not been able to keep a job for much longer than a few months. I get really bad anxiety just trying to go into a grocery store. It hasn’t been an easy year, but it has been eye opening for me. I am in the process of applying for disability and should get unemployment soon, I hope at least. I have discovered that I needed to look within and heal myself. In doing so I have discovered that I am in the middle of a spiritual awakening. What does that mean? I don’t know exactly, but I have literally thought I was going fucking crazy all year! However I feel as though I have never seen everything clearer in my life! If you have been through it… you know!

I also realized that I have not been the mother I wanted to be for the past couple years. I see this in my son more than anything. He is an amazing 11 year old. But he is depressed and has anxiety too. He does not go to school right now, he didn’t go last year for half the year either. I’m not proud of this fact, but I got him enrolled in online school right before COVID shut down our state. Him and I are both in counseling and in touch with his school. They understand that this mental health is more valuable than anything right now! I am now in the process of trying to heal myself and him. We also live with my mother. My son and I share a room. My daughter and her boyfriend share another room. My kids don't feel safe living where we live anymore. The crime rate has increased dramatically. My kids and I need our independence more than ever now!

I am trying the best I can to hold us all together through this year, and it has not been easy. The riots have been the final straw for my family. We can not stand living in Portland anymore. I do not want to leave Oregon, I love Oregon! However, we need to be in nature and be able to feel safe, going
to the store! There have been shootings within a few blocks of our house recently. My children do not feel safe in our own neighborhood anymore. I have been looking at homes for under 100k!

If anyone would be willing to help us out please I have venmo and cash app. I am trying to get a manufactured home out of the city, an hour away would be great! I do not have good credit and with only child support for
income at this time it is not easy. I have spiraled so far downhill from the mental health issues and running from them. I once had great credit, a new car, and extra money all the time. But it all caught up with me. This was not
easy for me to do, so if you made it this far, thank you for caring enough to read the entire thing.

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