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Deep breath, here I go….
This is a very personal story and very hard for me to open up about but sometimes, needs must!!
Ever since my teenage years, I've struggled with extreme mood swings, anxiety, low self esteem and lack of confidence due to trauma at a young age, all of which have had a big impact on my life.
After years of therapy and intense psychiatric treatment, I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2009. Over the years, I've had good and bad times but somehow, just got on with things.
Unfortunately, various medications and treatment over the years have failed to keep me stable and in 2012 I was hospitalised. This was a changing point in my life. I quit my stressful management job in recruitment, temped for a while and rented out my house and went travelling on my own. It was my psychiatrist who said "if you're doing the same things every day, seeing the same people, having the same struggles, then nothing will change". When I came back, I made the decision to go it alone and have a baby and my son was born in June 2015.
He is the most beautiful boy and so funny but being a solo mum is really hard! Yes it was my choice to do it alone, but all parents find parenting hard at times. I'm self employed so I can always be there for my son and by working hard at two jobs and tightening the purse strings (eBay clothes, no meals out, charity shop toys) I've done ok financially over the last few years. My job as a Consultant with the One 2 One Diet pays my tax bill every year and the money I earned in recruitment was my living and savings money.
Unfortunately, bipolar isn't something that will go away and my depression still rears its ugly head! 2020 and the year of Covid has hit everyone around the world so hard and I'm just one of them. At the start of the first lockdown, the arse fell completely out of recruitment and I've not earned anything from this all year, regardless of how hard I've worked. I've lived off my money as a Diet Consultant and savings and thankfully a little Self Employment Income Support Scheme during Covid.
Since August 2020, I've really struggled mentally and I reached out to my GP. I've been under the care of my GP and Solent NHS Trust. More recently, my mood has become really low, my anxiety has hit the roof and it's been so tough getting through each day.
Last week, I hit a wall and ended up calling the Crisis Team. I had an urgent assessment and ended up in a psychiatric facility, with my mum stepping up and staying with my son.
After a long and hard assessment with the Psychiatric Consultant, I've also been diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (previously known at borderline personality disorder). He said I urgently need DBT therapy but there is a TWELVE MONTH waiting list for the intensive therapy. It is weekly sessions but unlike bipolar, EUPD IS CURABLE!
Pre Covid, I could have afforded private treatment but my savings are dwindling fast having lived off them for the last year and I certainly don't have enough left to pay for it. But…...I know I need the treatment now and can't wait twelve months for NHS care.
Which is why I'm here.
I have found a private therapist who specialises in the recommended DBT therapy but it's not cheap. It will cost at least £7,500 for the twelve months treatment!!!
So, pride put aside with cap in hand, I'm hoping you can help.
All I'm asking is, please read my story with empathy, donate as little or as much to my treatment fund if you can and please share my link with your bubble of social contacts
I really appreciate you taking time to read this and if you have donated or shared, thank you so much x
Ps please bare in mind my mental health issues and if you don't agree with this or why I'm doing it, please dont share your opinions on here and make me worse
This is a very personal story and very hard for me to open up about but sometimes, needs must!!
Ever since my teenage years, I've struggled with extreme mood swings, anxiety, low self esteem and lack of confidence due to trauma at a young age, all of which have had a big impact on my life.
After years of therapy and intense psychiatric treatment, I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2009. Over the years, I've had good and bad times but somehow, just got on with things.
Unfortunately, various medications and treatment over the years have failed to keep me stable and in 2012 I was hospitalised. This was a changing point in my life. I quit my stressful management job in recruitment, temped for a while and rented out my house and went travelling on my own. It was my psychiatrist who said "if you're doing the same things every day, seeing the same people, having the same struggles, then nothing will change". When I came back, I made the decision to go it alone and have a baby and my son was born in June 2015.
He is the most beautiful boy and so funny but being a solo mum is really hard! Yes it was my choice to do it alone, but all parents find parenting hard at times. I'm self employed so I can always be there for my son and by working hard at two jobs and tightening the purse strings (eBay clothes, no meals out, charity shop toys) I've done ok financially over the last few years. My job as a Consultant with the One 2 One Diet pays my tax bill every year and the money I earned in recruitment was my living and savings money.
Unfortunately, bipolar isn't something that will go away and my depression still rears its ugly head! 2020 and the year of Covid has hit everyone around the world so hard and I'm just one of them. At the start of the first lockdown, the arse fell completely out of recruitment and I've not earned anything from this all year, regardless of how hard I've worked. I've lived off my money as a Diet Consultant and savings and thankfully a little Self Employment Income Support Scheme during Covid.
Since August 2020, I've really struggled mentally and I reached out to my GP. I've been under the care of my GP and Solent NHS Trust. More recently, my mood has become really low, my anxiety has hit the roof and it's been so tough getting through each day.
Last week, I hit a wall and ended up calling the Crisis Team. I had an urgent assessment and ended up in a psychiatric facility, with my mum stepping up and staying with my son.
After a long and hard assessment with the Psychiatric Consultant, I've also been diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (previously known at borderline personality disorder). He said I urgently need DBT therapy but there is a TWELVE MONTH waiting list for the intensive therapy. It is weekly sessions but unlike bipolar, EUPD IS CURABLE!
Pre Covid, I could have afforded private treatment but my savings are dwindling fast having lived off them for the last year and I certainly don't have enough left to pay for it. But…...I know I need the treatment now and can't wait twelve months for NHS care.
Which is why I'm here.
I have found a private therapist who specialises in the recommended DBT therapy but it's not cheap. It will cost at least £7,500 for the twelve months treatment!!!
So, pride put aside with cap in hand, I'm hoping you can help.
All I'm asking is, please read my story with empathy, donate as little or as much to my treatment fund if you can and please share my link with your bubble of social contacts
I really appreciate you taking time to read this and if you have donated or shared, thank you so much x
Ps please bare in mind my mental health issues and if you don't agree with this or why I'm doing it, please dont share your opinions on here and make me worse