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Elizabeth's Dark is Light

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Raised by 52 people in 21 months

WHAT HAPPENED?

Dis-ease has been silently brewing within my body for quite some time. As a baby, I was given excessive antibiotics for recurrent ear infections. Shuffling between my divorced parents and our new families, I was faced with conflicting worlds. To cope, I learned how to hide from the truth. I binged on sugar. When I was 8, my brother died unexpectedly. I kept silent. At 18, I had 3 root canals. That same year, I was drugged and raped. Instead of processing and releasing, I ignored. My tension grew layers.

At 29, I confronted my fear. I started seeing a psychologist to start processing the rape. Around the same time, I had an aggressive cervical procedure to remove precancerous cells.  I also discovered all 3 root canals had failed and needed to be re-treated. I processed these issues in silos. Charging ahead, trying to get through each as quickly as possible. I was slow to heal and endured a lot of pain throughout. 

30 had to be different. Realizing I didn’t subscribe to America’s definition of success, I quit my corporate job and headed to mainland China and Indonesia for 3 months to wake up. Days were spent writing, experimenting and researching my new career.

In February of 2017, I came home and brought back a disabling, Dengue-like virus as a souvenir. Shortly after, my boyfriend shattered my heart but I could still trust sugar. Days before I was scheduled to leave for a work trip to India, an abscess broke through my skin and I needed an emergency root canal extraction. The infection had never left my body. The post-surgical symptoms were debilitating. 

Specialist after Specialist told me they couldn’t find anything wrong. Many wrote it off as depression. It made me feel helpless. I think I would have wound up in a Mental Facility if I didn’t have my supportive family and long term therapist around me during this time. A few weeks later, we met with the best Integrative Medicine doctor we could find. I was sent to the ER and admitted to NY Presbyterian Hospital for 7 days.

Finally, we were able to determine that the remaining root canals were feeding harmful oral and intestinal infections. My healing response is severely weakened and I’m not absorbing nutrients. It has caused inflammation, lymph pain, around 15 pounds of undesired weight loss, extreme exhaustion and brain fog. We believe the virus has exacerbated the complexity of my situation. As time goes on, I continue to slowly heal from the oral surgery.


RECOMMENDED TREATMENT

This is not over. I need to have 2 more root canal extractions. My jaw bone needs to be scraped in 3 places. The extremely resistant bacterial infection needs to be treated. 

No one knows how I will react to more oral surgery but given my past reactions, I have to be in the safest environment possible for the remaining treatments. My body and mind are not equipped to handle more suffering.  I am depleted. 

I have a Masters Degree in Library & Information Science so I've done extensive research. There are laws and insurance companies blocking integrated treatment within the U.S.

The Paracelsus Clinic in Switzerland offers Biological Medical & Dental Specialists under one roof. They can make quick changes to my treatment plan and minimize the pain I'll have to experience. I have been accepted for 3 weeks starting October 2nd.

HOW WILL I USE THE FUNDS?

From November 2015 to November 2017, I will have acquired around $70k in medical bills. I’ve lived off of my savings since November of 2016. I am on Medicaid which has some benefits but a lot of the specialists I needed to see were out of network. Every penny that I have or can go into debt for is being spent on getting me back to health.

This GoFundMe Campaign totals my Paracelsus Medical costs for 3 weeks. It does not include travel, accommodation, previous medical bills, etc. The only other thing factored in are the fees GoFundMe charges. 

My thank you gifts are outlined when you click 'Donate Now'


WHY IS THIS SO IMPORTANT?

$1 will make a big difference in my heart.

I’m asking you to share this link. I’m asking you to donate not only to me but to the belief that we can improve healthcare globally.  It’s a big dream but it’s long overdue and change starts with small developments.

We’re slowly waking up to the mind body connection on a global level. I’m on a long, hard path but each step has led me to something much greater than I ever could have imagined. I’ve been given the gift of slowing down time and I’m grateful for the wisdom that’s come along with it. I have the skill, drive, and confidence to use these experiences to benefit others.

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OPEN HOUSE CELEBRATION

Saturday, 23rd of September
[Setup 1 pm] [House Opens from 3 pm until the Bonfire Dies]
RSVP 'Yes' or "Tell Me More" for:
More Info | Lodging Options | NY location

HAVE FUN FUNDRAISING We want to thank you for your support. Donations will be accepted  at the door & through a silent auction

SAY GOODBYE Elizabeth leaves for the Paracelsus Clinic on the 29th of September. There's no telling where she'll wind up next

TOAST 31 Elizabeth's Birthday is on the 6th of October

Everyone is welcome. Email ebrooks@darkislight.com for details. 

MORE INFORMATION


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5 Weeks at Paracelsus Clinic - Virus/Systemic Root Canal Infections - Recovery Update

After realizing the chronic infections in my jaw returned and spread to my intestines, I went to Switzerland for admittance to the Paracelsus Clinic, specializing in Biological Medicine and Dentistry. Five weeks of rigorous treatments aimed to support my body’s ability to regenerate and for my organs to heal themselves. Most notably, they removed 2 bad root canals and cleaned out jaw infection in 3 other places.

The infection flared into my upper respiratory system at first but has started to slowly subside. I still feel like a frail, elderly person at the age of 31. Stimulus and noise trigger swelling and head/joint pain. Here are a few ways I seek treatment:

Inflammation + Intestinal Pain:
= Weekly IV administration of Novocain + Homeopathic Remedies
= Supplements 8x/day
= Organic Alkaline Diet (as best I can): No meat, fish, dairy, alcohol, sugar, processed foods… etc.
= Limited stimulus/light/noise
~ A 7th antibiotic in 2 years is TBD

Energy:
= Pranic Healing
= Walking in the woods
= Yogic/Tai-Chi stretching

Anxiety + Tension + Head/Joint Pain:
= Breath Work
= Medical Cannabis/ CBD Oil

I believe true power lies within vulnerability. www.darkislight.com is being used to empower people to take charge of their own healthcare. I have researched and experienced the topic extensively. The legal system, insurance and pharmaceutical companies aren’t going to do it for us.

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5 Weeks at Paracelsus Clinic - Virus/Sys
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On October 28, 2016, my affair with corporate America came to an end and I prepared to embark on an exciting, albeit scary, ride. The courage to take a chance on my ability and intuition was found. What kind of life could I create for myself if I ignored the societal pressures put on 30 year old, Western females?

Looking up from my computer, the calendar reads October 28, 2017. I sit typing in a new Hotel after having to extend my stay at the Paracelsus Clinic for a 5th week. The infection spread to my left ear and grows in my upper respiratory tract. It would be impossible to fly without intense pain and rupturing an eardrum.

I didn’t expect my symptoms to intensify or travel. The last root canal was pulled on October 19th. Later, I learned my immune system was going to attack a to-do list, checking off boxes it hadn’t had time for when there were 5 pockets of infection in my jaw. Chinese Medicine refers to this as chasing the dragon. What will happen next? I try not to worry about how long this list has grown over the years. Grasping to figure out what I’m doing wrong, I feel I’ve been in Switzerland for way too long. Then I remember to let go. My health timeline lies within the universe; a place devoid of watches.

Heartbeats forcefully throb in my ear, reminding me I’m alive - that’s the positive spin. Each time a fiery bullet travels down my neck and through my arm, I quiver and wince. Combined with the intensity of my situation, it often sends me to tears. Lying still in bed doesn’t prevent pain from happening and increases my feelings of depression. It’s a struggle to cope with this instability and repeated change. Balancing rest and a sense of productivity messes with my mind. What. The. Fuck. The cycle starts again and I find hope. I visualize consoling my lymph system. I am here. It is what it is. I imagine receiving white light that can transmute the darkness living inside of me.

As you can see, it’s a process to reclaim the power that comes with gentle slowness. It is no coincidence that my dental infections became strong enough to identify on a typical xray at the same time I opened up to a textbook EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization
Reprocessing) therapist. Hindsight makes it obvious that pushing through the shame and powerlessness that came along with being drugged and raped wouldn’t work. At the same time, the HPV I was diagnosed with right after the violation became precancerous too quickly, requiring my cervix to be scraped. The team of doctors reflected my forceful mentality and I allowed myself to be re-traumatized. Shedding this victim energy is what I’ve been working
towards.

I settle on the idea that my voice needs more time. I am a writer learning how to express my soul in a way that’s meaningful to others. Painstakingly, I remember that the sound of my heart opening can’t be rushed. Slow is the lesson. S-l-o-w is the lesson. Damnit sometimes I wish for another lesson… and then I fall back into the vortex. I can do this. Strong is not a word I can easily relate to but when the evidence is reviewed, I realize I must be. Thank you for taking this journey with me.
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I’m in my 3rd week at the Paracelsus Clinic in Switzerland and am still massively overwhelmed (or I would have posted an update sooner.) Countless tests have been performed including HRV analysis, heavy metals & allergy testing, thermography and dark-field microscopy. The intense treatments usually last from 8am-5pm, Monday through Friday. Each day, it feels like my body and mind are being pushed beyond their limits. It means we’re attacking my chronic infections/inflammation from every angle.

Despite the overstimulation, I’m getting better and walking normally! My pace is still slow but ‘slow’ is the lesson I’ve had to learn repeatedly. Pushing forcefully through my health issues is a big part of what landed me here to begin with. The Paracelsus team was able to recognize this immediately. My story, test results and treatment responses all reinforce the fact that I’m a highly sensitive person. Less is more. My doctors focus on detox, intestinal health and regenerating my system/vital organs so that I can work towards having a properly functioning immune system. Some treatments I’ve experienced include magnetic field therapy, organ cell injections and whole body hyperthermia.

Since arriving, my treatment plan has vacillated every few days. Additional pockets of infection were found in my jaw using 3-D X-Rays, totaling five problem areas. Doctors didn’t want to do all of the dental work at once, thinking it was too much trauma for my depleted body to handle. As we worked on (literally) chipping away at the bone, my symptoms became more severe. They explained that stirring up the infection in one place occasionally makes the others worse. Weighing the options, we decided yesterday that staying an additional week and pulling the root canals now would be the best course of action. Although responsive therapy is one of the reasons I chose Paracelsus, it’s a struggle to mentally cope with and prepare for the last minute revisions.

Each time I sit in the dental chair, a wave of fear hits me. This entire process has heightened my PTSD symptoms. I don’t take medication to suppress it. I cling to my faith and deep breathing exercises. Breathe in safety, breathe out strength. Breathe in health, breathe out goodbye infection. I separate from my body, the sounds and pressure I feel as my bone cracks. Yesterday, it took 14 breaks before my tooth finally let go of my jaw. Writing helps immensely. As does the sense of camaraderie that’s felt from opening up to other patients working through the same process.

Trying to harness the experiences I’ve had for a new career gives me a sense of stability. I struggle to make sense of and document all the information I’m receiving. Being forced to decelerate has blessed me with the power of observation. There’s something driving me that’s beyond my control. I want to share my fears and anxieties because I’m not the only one dealing with this. Thank you for reading. We can all learn from each other.

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Dental Meridian Charts
Homeopathic Medications & Tooth #19
From my hotel in Teufen, Switzerland
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Thank you for watching: View of Sacred Gift Bags & Silent Auction Artwork. Update on what's helped my health + Future Plans for www.darkislight.com
A Heartfelt, Unedited Update xo
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